anti-hero// joshler

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i open my eyes to ashley. i let out a little scream, but they cover my mouth with their hand and point over me.

"joshua's behind you," she mouths.

"WHAT?" i mouth back.

"i don't think you slept together seeing as how you both have clothing on... but."

"HOW ARE WE IN THE SAME BED TOGETHER?" i rush, mouthing back.

"i wasn't here last night. i don't know what went on."

"OH MY GOD," i mouth to her.

joshua's hand starts to move around my abdomen.

"GO GO GO," i mouth.

they smile and run out of my room. i close my eyes.

"hm.. i thought you were awake," joshua whispers. 

i hear him get up out of my bed and walk into the kitchen.

"good morning, ashley!"

"hi joshua!"

i feel like i'm getting flashbacks.

"did you sleep with ty?"

"what.. no. i would never. not now. he was cold in the middle of the night and very tired."

"oh. so nothing but cuddle buddies."

"of course. i know he's... hes been, you know, sa'd."

"that's... yes."

"and it's his birthday. if he wanted to.. well he'd just ask."

"would you like to help me make his cake?"

i turn over and try to fall asleep. i need to sleep.

i need to.

-

"good morning, t."

"good morning, tyler."

ashley and joshua share a look like i don't know he slept in my bed. they don't tell me they know. it's like a weird secret. joshua and ashley think i don't know and that's their secret, but me and ashley know that joshua doesn't know that i know, and that's our secret.

"good morning," i respond.

"you're so old. what twenty... one now?"

"yeah. so old."

"i'm twenty one!" joshua laughs.

"we made you a chocolate cake."

"thank you."

"happy birthday tyler!"

"happy birthday t."

"thanks you guys."