Maybe This Time // Minsung

19. Til My Last Breath 🍃

"So?" Hyunjin asked me after I stopped talking about my night with Gaeun. It had been three days since then.

We sat in a small café, two cups of coffee in front of us. Hyunji wanted more information out of me.

"You kissed her back, you obviously like her" He spoke. This was exactly why I knew Minho would probably be the best person to talk to about that topic.

"It's not about that Hyunjin... I didn't like the kiss"

"But you kissed her back"

"Yeah. And hated it even more" I explained again. He furrowed his brows. "Maybe you just don't like kissing then" he gave a shrug.

As he took a sip of his coffee, that idea made so much more sense to me. Maybe I did like Gaeun and just hated kissing!

That made... Sense.

"Did you talk to your mom about it?" Hyunjin asked. I shook my head "No" I replied. He chuckled "So I'm the first to hear huh?"

My eyes widened ever so slightly. Hyunjin furrowed his brows "Jisung?" He asked. "Who did you tell? That's against bro code man" he sighed.

I opened my mouth and laughed instead "If writing it in my journal is... Someone..." I cleared my throat after.

Hyunjin laughed "You still tryna become Shakespeare?" He asked. I scoffed and sent him a glare. "No" I replied.

"Anyway, are you excited for next Monday?" He asked. "Cause I'm not. I might not go to school" he added.

"Whats next Monday?" I asked. Hyunjin rolled his eyes "I swear you never listen in school"

"I have better things to be doing" I replied. Hyunjin hummed "Like what? Joining the VA ?" he joked. I didn't reply but luckily he didn't notice how panicked I looked.

I never told anyone that I joined the VA. My parents were disappointed in me for doing it so I never told anyone else.

Although Hyunjin jokes about the VA a lot, he doesn't really like them. Who am I to talk about the VA as if I'm not part of it...

But all I know is our day shall come...

... Right...

I'm not so sure anymore.

"Basically, that build bridge community thing is organising a trip" He said. I furrowed my brows "To where?"

"The beach or something" He shrugged. "The weather is meant to be nice so I suppose it'll be fine"

"We can go in a group" Hyunjin threw in. "That way it'll look like we're getting along" he clapped his hands. He sipped his coffee. "I'm so smart"

I rolled my eyes. "You may not get along with Felix but I get along with Minho" I folded my arms. Hyunjin laughed "Yeah, the cuts and bruises he gave your face completely says get along"

I scoffed. "Well... We do!" I don't know why I wanted Hyunjin to just know we get along now.

Hyunjin hummed "Yeah okay whatever you say, bruise face" He pulled out his mp3 player and leaned over to me.

"Look! I added As I Told You" He clicked play on the song.

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Later that evening, I met up with Yejoon for another mission sort of thing.

We had to set up some bombs in a Criesonian area to go off on Monday.

Yejoon had about three done already but I was far behind as all I could think about was Minho and his friends.

Was this right at all-

"Jisung" Yejoon squatted down beside me. "Your taking ages" He took the bomb from my hands and finished it in seconds.

"There. Did you forget how to set up a bomb?" He laughed and nudged my shoulder. I shook my head as he handed it back to me.

"Put it over there" He pointed to a house. I hesitated. He noticed. He took the bomb and went over to place it down.

Once he came back to me, he yanked me off the floor and looked at me with confusion "What's wrong with you?" he asked frustrated.

"Nothing" I looked away. "No, there is" He wanted to know. I sighed and shived him off me.

"You don't need to know"

"Well whatever it is, it's affecting your work" He folded his arms. "What happened to the almighty Jisung huh? You used to love doing this!"

"Well I'm not so sure anymore!!" I exclaimed out of frustration. There was silence. Yejoon looked at me seriously, his eyes furious. "I didn't hear that Jisung"

"You did" I looked at him strongly. "This isn't right!" I cried. Yejoon grabbed me by the scruff. "Get yourself together Han" he said through his teeth.

"Get off of me!" I shoved him again. I was met with a slap to one of my cheeks. I grabbed it as the pain surged. It was the one with most cuts from the fight with Minho.

"Jihwan warned us about this" Yejoon spoke. "I had faith that you wouldn't actually be this way"

I looked up at him. "But you don't know what you fucking want!" He cursed. I gulped "I do... I want us to be free.. I want-"

"If you want us to be free" He picked up another bomb to be set up. He handed it out to me "Then fucking act like it"

I looked at the bomb in his hand, taking it into my own. I let out a sigh. "What's our motto Jisung?"

I looked at Yejoon. "Our day shall come" I said. He nodded "And why do we do what we do?"

"For our freedom" I replied.

"Do I need to remind you of what the Criesonian empire did to us?" He said as a statement more than a question. I wasn't meant to answer.

"Those sickos took our freedom, our jobs, our families, they left us without homes, without rights, they killed our people and laughed"

I looked at the bomb again, my anger bubbling up again for Crieson.

"They took your brother" Yejoon further said. "Velorea only knows what he's going through"

I felt tears in my eyes. Not of sadness but of anger.

"They took away our lives" He grabbed my shoulders and shook me as burning tears rolled down my face.

"So take it fucking back" He shouted. I nodded determined.

I set the bomb in my hand. Then the next, and the one after.

I placed them down without regret no longer.

As I put down the last one, Yejoon patted my back. "Glad you've come to your sense again man" He smiled.

"Sorry if I hurt you" He checked my cheek. I shook my head "I needed it"

Finally, I realised again why I joined the VA. Not even Minho could change my mind.

Til our day comes.

Til my last breath.

I won't leave the VA.

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Heyyyyyy

I have a math test tomorrow and did I study today for it? Barely.

I mean like I did study over the weekend and it seemed way easier than I thought so I don't feel nervous or worried... Should I be? Idk

AnYwAyS ill let you know if I fail🤭🤭 don't think I will tho hopefully

HAVE A GREAT DAY OR NIGHT XXX