Maybe This Time // Minsung

71. I Won't Lose You Right? 🍃

I opened my eyes and found myself in my room. What happened?

I looked around and slightly jolted a little when I saw Minho sitting down at my desk. He brought me here? Why did he bring me home? My head is pounding.

He sat quietly at my desk, flicking through something. I slowly tried to sit up but I felt extremely weaker than usual.

I let out a cough that made Minho turn around. "Ji" He rushed over to me to help me sit up.

He then reached for a glass of water and handed it to me. "Here, drink this" I took it carefully from him. Once I drank most of the water, I started to ask questions.

"What happened?" I asked. Minho took the glass from my hand and placed his hand on my forehead to check my temperature. "You had a panic attack" He said simply.

My eyes widened a little. Now I could remember fragments of what happened. "Did we fight?" I asked. He looked at me a little startled "Ji, can you not remember anything at all?"

I shrugged "I must have been really drunk" I mumbled. "What time is it?" I asked. Minho looked at his watch "Half past three in the morning"

My eyes widened "And you're here? Do my parents know?" I asked taking his hands. He nodded "I brought you home" He smiled.

"Oh..." Now I tried to think of what happened. Pieces of the night I had were trying to fit into a puzzle but it wasn't going anywhere.

I remember sitting by a fire with Minho, then looking at stars.. People running.. Me screaming...

Yeah, I'm getting no where.

"I think you should rest fully before I tell you what happened" Minho got up and walked over to my desk. "I found this" He said before taking up my journal in his hand.

My eyes widened. Did he read it?

"It was open on a random page and I may have took a glimpse-"

"No, put it down please" The fear of being made fun of again like Jihwan would have done was killing me.

I had no issues with people reading my journal before that. In fact, Hyunjin knew most of what was in there before the whole 'Shakespeare' joke from Jihwan started.

"You're a good writer" He smiled. "Is it like a self reflection thing or?" He asked as he put it back onto my desk.

"I just... Talk in there" I mumbled. "It sorts out my thoughts" I asked him to give it to me before opening up a familiar page I had read before.

Will Our day actually come?

"Here.. This is my thoughts about... You know" I handed it to him to read. "Are you sure?"

"I want you to know that I fully don't support them" I couldn't even say the VA anymore. I just called it them.

Minho gave me one last look before reading through the page. As he read, I saw a small smile appear on his face. "So that's what you thought all along?"

I nodded "Then I got misleaded I guess" I looked down at my hands. "But that entry wouldn't have made my mind clear when I wanted to leave!"

I looked up. "I just want to reassure you"

Minho lifted his hand to my cheek and caressed it softly with his thumb. He then leaned in and softly placed a kiss on my lips.

It was short and sweet. But so powerful..

"You're so cute" He mumbled. I bit my lip "I just don't want to lose you either"

Minho furrowed his brows "What do you mean?"

"I lost my brother, the one person who truely knew me other than myself" I started. "He meant so much to me you know?"

I held onto Minhos hand. "and now you mean so much to me that words can't even explain it... I just don't want to lose you too"

Minho hugged me after that. "You won't lose me okay?" He reassured. I nodded.

"I won't lose you right?"

I paused before replying. "No. You won't ever lose me" I took a breath.

"I swear by that"

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How are you? Hope you're well xxx

OMG school was like walking through hell🥵💅 like I moved schools this year and I now have come to find that it is simply the education system that makes me depressed.

The Irish education system is so shit

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