Maybe This Time // Minsung

27. I Like Guys🍃

I pulled away again but fully this time as I came down from some sort of high I'd been put on.

Minho's thumb gently caressed my neck as I stared at him. He let out a laugh "Well then? Is kissing Gaeun better now?"

No.

No. It wasn't.

I sat with that for a moment and then another thought popped up.

I like kissing guys.

My eyes widened as tears pricked my eyes. I brought one of my hands to my mouth in utter shock. I liked kissing guys.

No, that's not right.... I shook my head and let out a soft cry. I was pulled in for a hug right then.

Minho rubbed my back softly. "I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that to you" he mumbled in my hair. I shook my head and let out another sob.

"I really didn't think this would happen" Minho mumbled. I pulled back from his hug and looked at his face. He genuinely didn't think I'd like kissing him.

"You didn't?" I tried catching my breath. He shook his head "Well you thought kissing boys was weird and well... Since you were so frustrated I thought that maybe kissing me would help you realise that you enjoyed kissing Gaeun more than you thought"

I sat back against the wall behind us. I wiped away the tears on my cheeks. "I liked it" I said with a soft breath escaping my lips.

Minho looked at me a little surprised. I let out a sad laugh "I really like kissing you" my hands came to my face and covered it.

"Jisung I'm so-"

"Don't say sorry again" I sighed and looked up at him. "You only wanted to help me figure things out" I looked down at my lap. "I didn't think this would be the outcome but here we are!"

"I like kissing men!" I then let that settle in and cried once again. Minho sat closely beside me. "There's nothing wrong with that" he said softly.

"But there is! It's not normal" I let out a soft sigh. "How is it not normal?" Minho asked.

"Guys aren't meant to like each other that way" I cried. "I'm not meant to like kissing you!"

Minho gave a soft smile "I thought that once as well" He turned his attention to the TV. I looked at him a little confused.

"What?" I asked almost like a whisper. Minho glanced at me "I like guys Jisung" that was all he said for me to feel that sick feeling again.

"You're... You're-" I stumbled. He finished for me "Gay? Yeah I am" he folded his arms.

I looked down at my hands. I had been peeling away at the skin on my thumb. I continued to do so.

"So... Am I gay?" I asked. Minho laughed "That's up to you to find out" He replied. "But I don't think you're straight"

I let out a shakey sigh. "Can you play the movie now?" I asked. Minho hummed "Sure" he clicked play.

My mind was off elsewhere through the movie. Even when Time of Our Lives began to play, I paid no mind to it.

As if I hadn't enough on my mind of actually trying to figure out if Criesonian people weren't actually bad now I had no idea what I liked.

I heard Minho hum along to the song on the TV, it seemed to be the only thing I could hear.

Does this mean I like guys? I liked kissing Minho but does that mean I'm gay?

I couldn't exactly talk to my friends about it. They definitely had the same outlook as I did on the topic.

Then my mind went to Jeongin. He had said to me at the ice cream place that I had indirectly kissed Minho. He had no ounce of oddness behind it.

Maybe I could talk to him.

"Ji? The movie's over" Minho shook my arm. I looked at him and couldn't even hold eye contact.

"Right... I should go before it gets dark" I started getting up. Minho grabbed my arm "Are you sure you'll be okay?"

He meant about the whole sexuality thing. I smiled a little "You figured it out right?" I asked.

"I'll be fine" I wasn't so sure if I would be but it was better than leaving Minho sitting there guilty about wanting to help me out.

"But seriously I don't want to get shot on my way home so-"

"I could walk you" Minho stood up. "You sure?" I asked a little surprised. He nodded "It's not like I have anything else to do"

I folded my arms "How about homework?" I laughed. "Do I look like I care about homework?"

"Fine" I rolled my eyes.

Maybe I did find a great friend in Minho after all.

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