🖤💜Redolence Of Yours💜🖤 (Taehyung×OC)

40. Trivia: Love

No matter how hard he tried, Taehyung couldn't concentrate on the lecture at all even if it was about the most interesting surgery of the month, a conjoined twin separation who shared their lumbar plexus nerves.

After the incident in the clan residence, two days ago, there has been a lot going on inside his head. He couldn't help but think himself as a walking threat to his own family, to his friends at work even if he's far away from them. But that was just one thing among many.

He's a healer and he has accepted that from the bottom of his heart. There was this one time when a CVA patient was not being able to respond due to her medical condition. Taehyung was supposed to change her air mattress and the patient being heavy it was really hard to move her around. Taehyung was constantly communicating with the patient, uttering apologies and comforting words for the pain he was causing her. He had told her to keep patience and all the woman could do was tilt her head a little in acquiescence. Taehyung had to blink his tears away at the level of cooperation the patient was showing despite of how much of a pain she was in.

That's how much he hates seeing people suffering.

Maybe because of that, he couldn't accept treating any living being the way he saw Youngsun treating the little vampire. From time to time, he'd zone out and remember how emotionless and scary she looked while threatening the poor thing and then he'd shiver out of the incubus. He was thinking about breaking the news of his patch up soon to his brother, but now he doubts he can actually do that.

It's been only fifteen days since his world turned upside down and he already feels that he has aged a decade. When will this roller coaster ride end?

Never, a voice from inside him spoke and he couldn't help but let out a snicker. A few staffs looked at him from around and Taehyung got up, exiting the gallery for good.

He should spend time with his patients. It's morning anyway, he can just go with the regular care routine. Or he can just sit in front of the computer and update the admission chart. Sometimes he can just watch from afar, the patients and their families. Their happiness, their sadness, their fear and anxiety, their interactions through those emotions. Working in this medical field can really allow one to come across countless stories, some to unfold and some to flatline. Human lives are merely a blow of stardust in this infinite universe, yet it's surprising how colossal that can feel even in ordinance. May be, Taehyung thought, he should settle for the little ordinary things too? Is it too late? Why did his heart hurt like hell at the thought?

Right, he's madly in love with her. And yet he can't accept all of her without freaking out. Will it just take time and be okay? He has thought of this multiple times before, about how his world was going to crash against her head on. It's extremely unfair to ask her to change for him, because the threats she deals with is beyond inhuman. So the real question is, will he ever be able to be with her while maintaining the boundaries?

It's lunch hour already and Taehyung still hasn't found any answer to the questions eating his head up.

"Everything fine?"

It was Robbins. Taehyung sipped the rest of the smoothie and asked her instead, "Why would anything be wrong with me?"

"You're just bad at hiding it."

She didn't lie. Pretending is the least developed skill he has, amongst lying and manipulating and gaslighting...

"What's up sour patch face?"

Grr... Schmidt.

"Hey! Behave!" Samantha pointed her zucchini embedded fork at his direction.

"Sorry mom!"