Spencer Matthews is looking to turn his family of two into a family of three. He just needs to find a wife. With the help of his best friend Leah, Spencer is on a mission to find his missing half, but.... perhaps it had been there all along.
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My eyes couldn't seem to leave my phone screen. Davey was beside me, one arm lazily holding the steering wheel as the other fiddled with the stereo system. He was saying something about a new song by a band he loves. I couldn't really concentrate much on it. Guilt caused a loud ringing in my ears. I needed to get out more, I needed to start establishing my own identity outside of Spencer but, I didn't realize how hard it would be.
"Are you okay?" I jumped feeling Davey's heavy hand rest on my shoulder. I dropped my phone on my lap and blinked towards him.
"I'm alright. Sorry, just got too in my head there." He dropped his hand and returned it to the wheel. I wanted to say more, to reassure him that my mind was back on the date but, something else caught my attention. My eyes widened and I shot around to face Davey as much as the restricted space would allow. "Is this who I think it is?"
He broke out into a large grin. "I was wondering how long it would take for you to notice."
"When did they release the song?" I asked, reaching to increase the volume. Panicked Hearts had been my favorite band since high school. Their alternative rock and soulful lyrics stuck with me from the beginning. Spencer couldn't stand their music but they had always been a conversation point for Davey and I.
Davey laughed. "It was released like three hours ago. I knew I had to get it before I saw you." My smile widened. The small flutter I always felt with Davey was back and it allowed me to ignore my Spencer worries and focus on the better Matthew's man. I relaxed into my seat and let the music fill the car. Their new song, Starting New, was already promoted to be a hit but it wasn't until I finally heard it in its entirety that I realized how true that may be. Out of all their songs, there was something about this new single that resonated most with me. My mind couldn't seem to forget the chorus.
It's been a steady stream of normalcy,
the mundane a reassuring thump each night.
But the time has come to fight for more,
to fight for a thrill, for a life just beyond the steep hill
I want the laughter and joy, to surrender to so much more.
I'm moving ahead and starting new. I'm looking for that spark.
I watched as Davey tapped on the wheel to the erratic smack of the drums. When the chorus ended and the bass and electric guitars whizzed in an energetic roller coaster of chords, realization hit. It was time for me to find my spark. For six years I have felt devoted to Spencer and Zack. My time with them never felt like a chore but, somehow I had allowed my friendly help to become an escape; a string resisting my change. Nothing had changed in my life over the years. My career was in the same place it was six years ago. I stayed in the same apartment and I was still single. My last relationship had been a year ago and it had only last six months.
