Making it to three

CHAPTER 15

I was miserable. I shouldn't be but it had been a week since I'd seen or spoken to Spencer. I missed him something fierce. He'd always been my rock, the ray of sunlight to pull me from my dark thoughts. When Davey would always capture my thoughts, Spencer always had a hold on my attention. Now, things seemed to change. I couldn't stop thinking of Spencer, even when Davey begged for my attention. 

 "I think we should get away." I pulled my eyes away from the salt and pepper shaker and looked up. Davey had his phone in his hand, flipping it every which way between his fingers. He looked so handsome today. His hair looked a bit darker than normal, styled with gel so the tips could fluff up a bit. It was a styled messiness I always thought looked best on him. He wore a blue polo shirt which made his eyes stand out. I sighed and leaned my head on my fist. How did I get so lucky to have such a man throw all his attention toward me? "Babe, did you hear me?"

I shook my head. He'd started with the pet name only recently and it sent a thrill through me each time. I'd always fantasized of the day that word would be said to me, that I'd be owned in some way by him. "What?"

He chuckled and put his phone on the table. He then reached across and pulled my left hand in his. "I said, we should get away. Just the two of us."

I pulled back slightly. "Like a vacation?"

"Not necessarily. Just like a weekend away. There's a holiday cabin my family has owned for years -"

"I know of it."

His eyebrows furrowed. "I forget how intwined you are in my family. Have you been to it before?"

"Only once, after graduation. Your mom let Spencer and I spend two nights there to celebrate. Spencer wanted to celebrate going to the graduation party but I," I paused. Graduation was both the best and worst memory for me. It was my first major flare up, one that shaped the course of the next couple of years of my life, and not in the good way it's supposed to. I'd been excited for the end of high school party our class had been organizing for months before, but then everything changed. Rather than go to the party, Spencer organized time away from everyone else and instead, we celebrated. We couldn't do much, things considered, but still Spencer went out of his way to make everything great.

Spencer made what could have been the worst moment of my life, one of my best. It was the moment I realized I couldn't go on in life without him. I cleared my throat. "We chose to rather do our thing. Was a lot of fun. The cabin is so big that Spencer and I made a game of seeing who could sleep in the most rooms." 

Davey smiled but there was something stiff in his expression. "We could go for a weekend. What do you say?"

Excitement filled me. Maybe this was what we needed; what I needed to focus back on Davey and less on Spencer. I agreed and suddenly his smile - the one I loved the most - was back. 

This is what - who - I needed. It had always been Davey. I just had to remember that.