Earth Girl.

chapter Twelve. goodbye song.

Unlike other chapters ths one has a song to go with it . GOODBYE, by avril lavigne . I think it fits perfectly.

The next few chapters may be considered fillers as I know where I want the story to end up but I don't wanna rush to get there.

as always blood +kisses Amy .x

He's putting it off, I'm home now but Jess keeps calling with updates and as far as I can tell the doctor is hovering around the house trying to stall going to River. I understand his reluctance, he doesn't want to say goodbye but he knows how it all ends and it has to happen . I tried calling him directly but with no success as he wasn't answering .

I hate being so far away but there's nothing I can do about it , my life is here and I can't just leave whenever the feeling takes me. Part of me wishes I could fast forward to when my son is all grown up so I could move to London permanantly without his dad throwing a fit.

***TWO DAYS LATER***

My phone is ringing as I pack up the shopping in the supermarket, I quickly stuffed the rest in the bags and grabbed my phone from my pocket.  I froze when the name Jess popped up on the screen, I answered and closed my eyes waiting for her to speak.

"Hi Amy, thought you would want to know he came down from the room this morning , got dressed in a tux and left in the tardis "

"Thanks for calling Jess , it's good to know he's finally accepted what needs to be done . Did he say if he would be coming back to the house after or is he going off on his own for a while?"

"He didn't say but if he comes straight back here i'll give you a call. Oh Amy ,before you go can I just say, I'm sorry for your loss, I know you were so close to her ."

"Thankyou Jess, we'll talk later. Bye "

"Bye honey."

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It's been almost three weeks since Jess called , I've tried to get on with my life and not think about what he's going through but it's been hard . I'm due to visit again soon but I think I'm gonna wait until I know the doctor is there before I go, there's really no point in going to the house if he's not there and then getting back just to get a call saying he's home .

Waking up with a start I grab for my ringing phone , it's four in the morning so I know it can only mean one thing.

"Yes" I say quickly as I answer.

"Hi honey, I know it's late but I thought you should know he's here and in one piece. Are you still coming this weekend? "

"Hi Jess, yes I'll be there tommorow night , do you think he's ok to wait until then?"

" He seems ok, from what I could get out of him it's been two years for him. Apparently he was too angry to come back before now but he didn't want you to wait that long."

"That sounds like him, putting other people before his own sanity. I'll be on the first train I can get after I drop the little one with his dad, thanks for calling goodnight Jess"

"It's no problem , goodnight honey "

So he's back , there's no way I'm gonna sleep now . May as well get up and start packing , I just need to get through today and then tommorow I can drop the little fella at his dads and jump on the train.

Three hours later I was doing the school run then went to visit my mum while I waited for school to let out , no one knows about the doctor and my mum seems to think I've got myself a boyfriend in London. It is strange for me since I now know she isn't my mum but River did something to the family so they think I was born into it, only a select few know why River chose the family as it has connections to the studio.

After answering a dozen questions about my apparent London boyfriend I managed to escape mum and pick up my little monster. At least mum had taken my mind of the doctor for a while , what didn't help was the monster wanting to watch his dr who dvds when we got home . I ended up making myself busy with ironing upstairs while he watched and ate his dinner .

Tucking him into bed at eight , I'd run out of busy work and had to sit down which of course gave my mind time to catch up with me . All I could think was what he was going through.

****P.O.V. THE DOCTOR****

It's friday morning , little Jess keeps popping her head in the door to see if I'm still here. Of course I am , this is where I need to be right now . I tried running , I met a couple of people along the way and they helped me realize it's ok to need someone right now . They weren't enough though, I need her . Everything feels so much easier around her , even breathing , Especially after this , I made sure to come back early because I know she's at home with people who don't really know her and she lost a good friend and fantastic aunt too.

I called Donna today, she knew instantly why I called and straight away went into supportive friend mode, telling me we knew she was safe forever in the stories of the library. She was just what I needed , I can't imagine if I hadn't been able to talk to her after all these years, especially since she was there with the younger me . Now I just have to wait till tonight to see my little earth girl, I don't know why I say little anymore , she is quite obviously a full grown woman with a child of her own. I guess if I think of her as little amy my mind thinks it's keeping her safe, I would never tell her I dred the day she becomes timelord because then I can't be sure she will ever be safe again.

It must be lunchtime now as a tray of food has appeared next to me , Jess the fairy must have left it while I was deep in thought .

"hey there" I popped my head up to see Matt standing in the doorway.

"Hello, how are you?" I asked coming back to the real world.

"ok, I won't even ask how you are, Amy let me know a couple of weeks ago that it had happened "

"yeah, thanks, you and Amy talk?"

"yes, mainly just a little texting here and there, it helps to have someone to speak to who knows everything. I think she feels a little suffocated where she is sometimes."

"I'm sorry for that, she should be happy"

"she is , I mean not at the moment as she just lost a family member . But in general she's good, they gave us all a weekend off due to the circumstances so I thought I'd come here and see you both"

"They filmed "last night" years ago, why take a break now?"

"It was filmed from the point of view of young doctor , you have just been on the opposit end as the one off on his way to the towers. It's as a mark of respect for your loss, she was one amazing lady."

"That she was"

"I'm off into town with Jess to get lots of comfort food, anything in perticular you or Amy will want?"

"urm, Amy may want some cheese and onion ruffles and get a big pot of raspberry yogurt "

"ok, weird combo but fine "

"It's what she likes " I couldn't help but smile at the look of discust on his face, really I like fish custard and he has a problem with yogurt and crisps .

Matt left with Jess a few minutes later and I ate some of the lunch before going into the back of the library to tinker with the tardis and try to keep myself busy. All I need is her right now .

*******P.O.V. AMY*******

It's four thirty and I just took my seat on the train, I have a bag of jelly babies in my lap and my earphones in playing my swedish metal playlist, which River once told me was noise I don't know weather to laugh or cry at the moment , I just know I need him.