Earth Girl.

chapter thirteen. Coming Home

Jess txt to let me know she'd be out ,I guess she's giving us some space at the house . I grabbed a taxi and it was just pulling up at the house, I noticed all the lights were out except the library was he trying to make himself feel worse by being in there?

I dumped my bags at the bottom of the staircase and went to the drinks cabinet in the parlor, searching through I finally found what I was looking for , I took the bottle of tequila with me as I walked towards the library. As I stuck my head into the room I couldn't see him but I heard noises coming from the back of the room, I headed past the chairs and desk and was almost there when he came from behind a bookcase holding an oily rag.

He looked spaced, like he wasn't quite here and his hair was overgrown . He looked older and tired but at the same time younger, like a lost child , I would guess it had been longer for him than us I took a large glug from the bottle I was holding and held it out to him after. He took a hold of the bottle and went to sit at the desk , I followed and perched on the edge of the desk.

"I'm not gonna ask if you're ok, because that's just the stupidest question in the universe right now. But I will say, it will get better and you know that but you can't cut yourself off"

The doctor looked up at me as he took a large gulp from the bottle .

"You're right , I know I can't run I've been gone for a couple of years and it didn't work, I think I need to be around people who are feeling the same things as me . That way I'm allowed to grieve with others instead of surrounding myself with people who don't know so I don't have to deal ."

"See your smart enough to know that so why do you always run?"

"Trust me from now on the only place I'll run to is here" his eyes were looking glassy as he took a third drink and as I saw his shoulders twitch I slid toward him on the desk . The doctor put  his arms around my waist and I grabbed the back of his head when he buried it in my stomach.

After a few minutes of me stroking his hair as he silently cried we seperated, he sat back and wiped his face with both hands "I wasn't supposed to get attached"  he said with a small laugh, but there was no humour behind it .

"Impossible. It was River , you knew her all her life and I knew her all mine she was the best . The most heartless of person would get attached to that woman" I said with a small smile .

" Yeah, I was done for the moment I met her. Come on lets go to the kitchen Jess and Matt should be back with the shopping and I think we need to eat something if we're gonna be drinking all night "

I hopped off the desk and followed the doctor into the hallway, I took the bottle from him and had a sip as he slipped his hand into mine.

The doctor was right , Jess and Matt were just unpacking the shopping , we sat at the table with me on the doctors lap playing with his hair.  Matt looked over and gave us a nod then his eyes hit the bottle in my hand and he raised an eyebrow.

" Is that a good idea? " he asked

"This is a painful operation, it requires anaesthetic." I said giving a pointed side look at the doctor.

Matt seemed to accept my response as he walked ver to the table and put down a bag of crisps and a pot of yogurt, I tugged on the doctors hair and he looked up at me and thn down to the snacks infront of us.

" He asked if there was anything we needed , I thought you might want comfort food"

"OK, thanks Matt"  he went off back to Jess who smiled over at us . " I think there might be something going on with those two" I spoke into the doctors ear.

The doctor took a sneeky look over to them and nodded , I think I even saw a quick smile pass his lips. We decided to leave them alone and went up to our room, I made the doctor carry my snacks along with his own.

It was only after we sat on the bed with our food that I noticed we'd finished the bottle of tequila , I dumped the empty in the bin.

"I think that's enough to drink , how about dvd's and junk food to kill our braincells?"

He looked a little groggy, " sounds good , hey when we finish can you cut my hair again?"  he was pulling at his fringe and making a duck face with his hair as a moustache. I couldn't help but laugh.

"sure thing " we got comfy and started the dvd.

I can honestly say I never noticed how much sex there was in true blood , until I'm sat next to a guy while watching it . I keep hearing the doctor gulp and he started fidgeting about half an hour ago, I offered to change it to something else but he insisted he wanted to know how things turned out between Eric and Sookie .

I managed another hour but then it was just too awkward so I jumped up " wanna do that hair now we're both a little more sober?"

Anything to change the mood. I went into the bathroom to get the scissors and stuff while the doctor got the stool into the middle of the floor again. When I turned around he was already sat down with his shirt off and a towel over his shoulders "what's with the striptease" I laughed

"there's a lot to come off and I don't wanna be all scratchy again" he said shrugging his shoulders.

"ok" I quickly set to work with the scissors and pretty soon the doctor looked himself again, as I'd finished I walked over to the shower and turned it on to warm up while I brushed most of the cut hair off the doctor. I was about to leave when he held on to my upper arm and pulled me to him, I was face to chest with the doctor as he whispered "I need you "

I lifted my head to tell him to stop being a baby , that he was sober enough to wash himself and our showering habit was getting a little odd. but I didn't get a chance as he caught my lips in a strong hungry kiss, not even pausing before slipping his tounge into my mouth,

I don't know if it was the dvd or the alcohol but I had no willpower to stop what was happening .