"It's me. I really...I don't know exactly if you listen to this before you leave, and I don't know why I care. I'm fine, eating well, sleeping well. I'm not going to say more than I have to...I just...I still don't understand why."
Taehyung's voice stopped to hold back a sob, then continued with an unsteady breathing.
"It was never because of your parents, you know? Not because you were afraid, not because you loved me or, well, I don't know if you still do. It wasn't because of any of that."
A long silence, soothing silence.
"If that boy makes you happy that's fine. I just...I don't understand if you know I'm not that strong, why would you do this to me."
Namjoon set the phone down, watching the clouds pass by his small window.
"I just want you to know that I still love you, and that's not okay. And... damn, it's midnight, I don't know what I'm doing this, but, I want you to know that I'm okay. At least for the time together, I thought you'd like to know that. I'm fine...but this didn't have to be like this."
There was a languid sigh, then he cleared his throat.
"I admired you a lot...and I know you were worried about not giving me the best, but it hurts me that you didn't understand that I just wanted you to be real with me, your real You. "
Namjoon covered his face and felt it get redder and redder.
"I'm not going to wait for you, and I wish you the best, but I would have liked you to apologize to me. I'm sorry if I bother you, but if you hear this, I like to know that it's because inside you feel at least a little bad for what you did to me. Maybe that means I fell in love with a good person after all."
The message ended.
Namjoon dropped the phone on his lap, letting himself cry from the frustration of the plane he was on. He closed his eyes and wanted to die right there and there. Looking around him at the people who were looking askance at him, he felt like a wrong person.
Returning his gaze to the window he saw the Golden Gate Bridge. He understood that perhaps it was too late to go back.
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HOME - Taejoon
FanficOne fell in love the way one used to: submissively, carelessly, and giving everything of oneself; but he did so with someone who needed his honesty to feel complete. As time passes, it is no longer enough and everything fractures in the desperation...
