Forever His Princess

-seventeen-

AMARI ROUSSEAU

"I've got a question." I said, lying down on his chest. "You don't have to answer it if you don't want to."

"What is it?" Nikolai asked, looking down at me.

"You know when I first met your mum, at the office." His cheeks went slightly red and he closed his eyes, waiting for the question. "You shouted at your mum that you weren't a virgin. But then you told her you lost it a month and a half ago."

"There's no questions in that, princess."

"I know, I know. I'm getting there, just need to set the scene." He laughed and motioned for me to continue. "We had sex a month and half before that day. So the question you were so impatiently waiting for... was I your first?"

"Yes." Nikolai said so quietly I almost missed it but I couldn't stop the grin from coming on my face.

"Wait, really?"

"Mhm." He was way too good for that to be his first time. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you."

"No, no. You didn't have to, I'm just surprised, that's all."

"Who was your first?" He asked after a while.

"It was Danny."

"What, Daniel from the firm?"

"My bestfriend, yes."

"Is that something I should be worried about?" He said quietly, sound slightly upset.

"God, no. Of course not. We were sixteen. It was around the time Danny had started to lose most of his weight, he was bullied because he was bigger when we were growing up. He started to get more comfortable in his body but he still had very little confidence in himself.

He was scared for his first time and wanted it to be with someone he was comfortable with and because I was one of the only people he was comfortable with I did it with him.

I had a lot of boys after me because of my body during college. I wanted my first time to be meaningful, with someone I knew wasn't using me for that reason and liked me for who I was. I found that in Danny.

It was basically a win-win situation for both of us." He hummed quietly to himself and bit his lip nervously. "Nikolai?" I said quietly, lifting my head from his chest.

"Yeah...?"

"I promise, we're completely platonic right now. Danny is my bestfriend, nothing more... I like you, Niko. Maybe a little more than I should." He laughed and leaned over to kiss me.

"I'm definitely taking you out on that date then. What about Monday?"

"We have work."

"I'll give everyone the day off, we'll have an extended weekend."

"Alright." I said, shaking my head at him, leaning my head back down to his chest and throwing my arm around his torso. "How come you've never done it before?"

"Huh?"

"I mean look at you, you could literally have anyone you wanted. I mean your secretary practically throws herself at you everyday."

"Does she?"

"Nikolai, you've got to be kidding. You don't notice the fact she's eye fucking you every time you two are in the same room? Plus she refers to you as her boyfriend."

"My mum said the same thing, I just don't really pay attention to Emily." He sighed. "I guess I just wanted my first time to be with someone I actually liked. Besides, just because a lot of people want me, doesn't mean I want them."