Convicted Choices{Book 1} *EDITING*

- Chapter 10 -

*Continued scene from Chapter 9*

-Tashay Pov-
After I got out of the hot bath that burned my body oh so deeply, I lotioned up slowly to keep from hurting my fragile body, I had to go to the hospital in the morning no matter what. I whimpered as I put on my long shirt that stopped right above my ass, I wiped my now falling tears off as I laid in the bed thinking about my ruined life.

Chris walked in with the aroma of weed following behind him, I stared straight ahead, I hated him with all of my guts and hoped he'd die but I loved him, I don't even know what happens to his basketball career, Chris was my everything, he was suppose to protect me instead of hurting me, he beat me so hard I was hurt. He never put his hands on me before. What's so different now? Is he seeing another bitch? What did I ever do to deserve all of this? Someone please tell me. I was by his side the whole way through and now he hits me? Fuck him and fuck me. This life. This dead baby inside of me.

I pulled the covers over my cold body as I shivered, the shiver wasn't of being cold, it was of being used like a garbage can, that's what I felt like. He didn't even rape me, he just fingered me which I felt so violated, he made it look as if though he was fucking me with his dick but in all reality he was seconds away from actually pushing it in. It did touch me, no doubt that it didn't but it didn't slide in, just stood at the entrance like an unwanted visitor.

Trey tried to rape me but I bit him and he abused me also, I'm sore from all the hurt, my heart, my brain and my body is all so sore and it's all so confusing. My question remains unanswered, what did I do to deserve all of this?

I cried myself to sleep, I was woken up by Chris kissing my neck, I closed my eyes, my body wanted this touch, it needed this touch, it craved this touch. I missed him and his abusive ass but I loved him and no matter how many times people call me dumb, I know I'm really not. The question is are you in collage yet? Did you graduate and open your own shop? Did you do all this by the age of twenty two? Didn't think so, so I advice all the stupids to choke on my daddy's dick.

"Chris stop." I whimpered which I thought would come out to be a moan, I wasn't sore anymore all of a sudden, just my neck hurted like hell and my face was feeling like I'd just hit my toe on that metal thing when your walking past your bed that sticks out.

He ignored my response, he was loving this action, he stopped kissing me before pulling me to sit up. We looked into each others poofy eyes, "Baby I'm so sorry. I'll never ever put my hands on you again. I love you too much and I was high off pills and the weed Franco gave me and the liquor I'd drunk. I'm so sorry bae, it was my job to protect you and I didn't. I'm sorry." He apologized letting his tears fall and emotions come out. I kissed his forehead patting his back.

"I love you too." I mumbled turning his face to mine, I leaned forward connecting our lips together, they synced like google synced contacts from your phone.

Our movements turned from kissing into fucking, next thing you know he was sucking on my tender breasts while toying with the other. He took it whole into his mouth before licking the tip of my areoles, he pushed his head down to my vagina when I felt his tongue flick on my clit I went wild. I squirmed around trying to get away from his magic flicker, he pulled me back down licking it faster and faster when I reached my climax cuming all on the sheets. Soon after I hadn't noticed I fell asleep until I heard Chris mutter. "I love you sexy." I chuckled under my breath going back to sleep.

This doesn't mean I'm not still hurt by his actions, to earn my trust and love back he's gonna have to work really hard.