Amidst the Lies (Higuera Series #2)

Simula

Simula

I enhale a shaky breathe and close my eyes tight. Mahigpit ang hawak ko sa dalawang stick na may dalawang linya. Ramdam ko ang panunubig ng aking mata. I pursed my lips and let go a heavy breathe. As my heart was shaking so badly.

This is so fuck up! I'm so fuck up! Hindi ko ito kaya. Hindi pa ako handa. Napaka laking responsibilidad nito. Hindi ko siya kayang buhayin!

Huminga ako ng malalim at tinago sa aking bulsa ang dalawang stick ng pregnancy test. I look at myself in the mirror. There are dark circles under my eyes, mugto rin ang aking mata, something in my appearance change.

Naghilamos muna ako bago lumabas.

Pinakaramdaman ko ang paligid. The house is too quiet. Hindi pa umuuwi si Tita. Nagtungo ako sa kwarto ko at tinago ang pregnancy sa aking drawer.

Lumabas ako ng kwarto at nagpatuloy ako sa pagtungo sa living room. From where I was standing I saw a pile of trash everywhere. Nasa coffee table sa carpet, even spilled wine was everywhere.

Nagtungo na ako doon at nagsimula nang linisin ang mga kalat. Nilagay ko itong lahat sa bin bag.

Avalia held a party last night. They were so loud and having fun while I was experience some pregnancy hormones inside my room. Nasusuka ako sa baho ng alak, kaya't nag kulong ako sa aking kwarto. Ilang araw nadin akong naghihinala sa pagbubuntis ko. Ang ibang paborito kong pagkain inaayawan ko na. Minsan nga'y nasusuka ako ma amoy lang ang mga ito. Paminsan sinusungitan ko si Avalia kahit hindi ko gustohin lumalabas nalang itong bigla dahilan kung bakit ako napapagalitan.

Matapos kong mapulot lahat ng bubuog at basura kinuha ko ang vacuum. Pasimple kong hinawakan ang aking tyan. I can't do heavy works now that I'm pregnant. Hindi ako pwedeng mapagod baka mapano ang bata. Pero wala akong choice, ganito na ang buhay ko simula bata pa, ang mag trabaho sa stepmother ko kapalit ng pagpapatira at pag aaral niya sa akin.

Maaga akong nangulila, my mom died of giving birth to me while my dad, recently died because of an accident. My father's sister keep me. Like how cliche it sounds I'm Cinderella's version in this reality. Kung baga katulong.

Matapos kung I vacuum ang buong sala ang kusina naman ang sinunod ko. But before that I cooked two hotdogs and bacon for Avalia, my Tita's daughter. Pagtungtung ng ala diez magigising ma yun at maghahanap ng pagkain. Hinanda ko na agad ang kaylangan niya cause for sure she will reek alcohol and I can't risk my pregnancy hormones around her or she will find out and I will be kick out of this house.

I quickly clean the kitchen. I went back to the living room to remove the carpet before going out to the laundry room to wash it. Kumuha ako sa storage room ng panibagong carpet. Nilapag ko ang carpet sa pagitan ng sofa. Nilagay ko pa balik ang coffee table.

A certain magazine caught my attention. Umopo ako sa carpet at kinuha ito. Pinagmasdan ko ang litrato ng isa sa mga mayamang pamilya dito sa bansa.

I was drawn to the man whose piercing eyes were fixed on the camera. My hazy recollections from that evening flooded back to me.

In a corner, I found myself kissing someone. Because it was too dark and I was too inebriated to recall who he was, where I discovered him, or when I first started talking to him.

When he grabbed my waist and drew me closer to his body, I let out a purring sound as I felt his clad chest on mine and his turn on against my stomach.

From my cheek, he snakes his hand to my nape and pulled my head to deepen the kiss.

Mahigpit ang pagkakapit ko sa shirt niya habang nilalabanan ang bawat halik niya. His flavor invaded my senses like a drug, and I couldn't get enough of it. Even though the taste of alcohol was overpowering, and so was the aroma of his breath.