The Dreamer

TWENTY-EIGHT - Heartbreak and Frustrations

"Shin-ah, your Mother called this morning," my Father told me while we were eating our breakfast. Why does it feel like they talked about something important?

"We just had a chat last night. She said Eun Ri and Yeon Soo will come with her."

"Eun Ri-ah apparently changed her mind this morning. Your Mother sent you something. Read it later," he said and left me there alone.

I tried to finish my food, washed the dishes and went immediately to my room. I opened my computer to check my account. I feel nervous. Why so suddenly she changed her mind? And Dad, what's with him?

I opened my Mom's message.

<Hi, dear. How are you? It took me some courage to open up this, but since my conscience couldn't take it anymore, here it is. Few months ago, Eun Ri met a car accident. It was a luck that she survived despite of the wounds she got. The driver was drunk and even pointed us his gun. The neighbors came over to help us and brought Eun Ri to the hospital. She was confined for one month, and I could not even say it to you then since I was afraid you would panic and be pressured to come here immediately. Your younger sister is okay now and I am trying to convince her to come with me there in Korea but really, she doesn't like it. Sorry for lying last night just to assure you I'll come back but I'm sorry, I just can't. Yeon Soo always asks about you. I already talked with your Father to prepare your papers for tranferring here and he agreed already. Aside from that, your Grandfather is getting older and weaker that he couldn't go back there anymore so he wants us just to live here instead. You're gonna continue studying here and your Father will abandon his work there. Anyway, the school year is about to end, dear. Make the most of everything before you leave your friends. I'm anticipating that you really made some friends. Please understand this and think about it carefully. I love you.>

Then another one from my younger sister.

<Unnie-ah, how are you? Yeon Soo and I want to see you badly. We couldn't go there since I am still not fully healed. We don't even like Korea's cold climate. We're afraid we might just die of coldness there. Furthermore, I couldn't walk properly. Unnie-ah, we miss you. Please come back home soon. >

I think my heart just exploded in a million pieces after reading their messages. I have lived my life for almost 8 years here, but now, it seems like I'm gonna leave everything behind and start a new life again back in my own country.

But I don't want to leave. I don't want to leave everything here. The thought of not seeing and talking to Taeyeon and Boyoung anymore hurts me. And yeah, Min Yoongi, that guy. I think I couldn't live without him. It breaks my heart apart. Oteokke? This is too much.

I forced myself to get up, fixed myself and walked my way to school. I was expecting that the students were few since the JS Prom last night ended at 3am already. I'm sure that the 3rd Year and 4th Year students are excused for not attending their classes today.

But I'm wrong.