Desire of Love | Soap x Fem reader

26

Well the days continued. You made breakfast in the morning with Johnny, ate with the others and then continued to do some sport. This morning was different at least after preparing the breakfast. Ghost had taken your hand and pulled you out of the house more towards the tree line. "Okay Reaper listen, I am tired of training with Gaz I need someone who actually knows how to fight." His words tickled a laugh out of you, It wasn't unexpected that the big bad skull man would say something like that, but the desperate look in his eyes made it just much better. "Okay fine". A breathy thank you slipped out of Simons mouth before you fixed the balaclava sitting on your face. 

The first attack went pretty decent, Simon had tried to pull your leg off the ground. In which you only reply with jumping up and wrapping both of your legs around his upper body, pulling the giant to the ground with you.  Ghost was now laying on top of you, being quick in motion you turned both of you around, wrapped your legs around his neck and strangled him barely enough to have him struggle with breathing. He tapped out taking heavy breaths after you had relaxed your muscles and stood back up. 

"either you're getting old or there is something going on in your mind Simon". The older stood up and rubbed his neck a little not daring to look you in the eyes. "Whats wrong?". Before you had expected him to move closer he suddenly pulled you into a hug resting his head on your shoulder. "Today is the day my family died all these years back" Even though his words were quiet, it was still enough for you to register what he said. 

Not finding the right words suitable for this situation you just answered the hug with wrapping both of your arms around him. The hug was strangely very comfortable, Ghost's warmth surrounding your presence in an ease. It was nice to be this close to him, knowing that he needed this form of physical contact and that you could provide it to him. God even just that he trusted you with being this vulnerable.  Ghost definitely was a part of you, he had grown incredible close over the year you have been a part of the task force already. Being like a little sister to him gave him the family he had lost. Even after all these years he couldn't get the torture from his dad but also the happy moment with his family out of his head. 

All he wished for were to be with them, show his dad how far he came in life even though he knew he would never be proud of him. "You're doing so good Simon, i'm proud of you". Your words shattered something inside his heart, pulling you closer into the hug just to hide the tears that started to swell up in his eyes. The two of you stood there for a little while just enjoying each other's presence. Simon had calmed down after a little feeling slightly embarrassed from this moment of weakness. 

"Now ready to kick some ass?". 

"you can count on that". The Training started over again. You decided not to speak up on the moment you two had just shared knowing that Simon wasn't the kind of guy to open op to someone, nor show how much the loss of his family and living without them did to him. You wouldn't tell him, but you could hear little sobs escaping his mouth every once in a while, while the two of you just stood there. Training had taken a little longer than usual as Simon lost almost every round and couldn't stop until he won. Completely exhausted and with burning muscles you decided it was time to give him the sweet victory and just let him throw you to the ground. "fucking finally". Simon collapsed to the ground right next to you, breathe going heavy as he pulled the mask up over his nose revealing slightly parted plump lips. "Simon?" 

He moved his dead towards your direction looking at you. His eyes scanned yours waiting for you to finish your sentence. "Have you ever thought about settling down? leaving the army behind". There it was the desire to live a normal life with John maybe even kids and definitely a pet. The desire of love every morning looking into the eyes of the guy that captured your heart in a storm. "I don't have anything outside the military y/n". The words punched you straight in the face. He didn't have anything? 

"You have us Simon". A slight smile formed on his lips revealed by his mask still pulled up. "Thank you but this is all I need, It the adrenaline that a live for not the people that are standing with me". welp. 

"Think about it, even you need to retire eventually". You stood back up helping him off the ground before walking back. Your words left him thinking but the desire to let the people bleed that hurt him or his former partner is bigger. 

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"Hey Simon do you want to come back to the bar with us we might find some hot chicks for you?". The man speaking is from Simons Team, They had started in the army together a few months ago. "No thank you i'll hang out with Gary instead, have fun tho". With those words the guy left taking the other men with him. "You didn't have to Simon" The younger spoke. His hair messy from just waking up. He looked perfect, eyes, and lips puffy from sleeping all day long. "You know I would rather spend my day with you, I don't even like the girls they are pulling" A chuckle followed from Gary warming Simons heart in an instand. 

Before Simon could react two hands pulled him closer to the other before a pair of soft lips met his. The kiss soft and warm, making the butterflies start a war in his stomach. 

3 years Later. 

"ROACH!!" without the chance to catch his significant other Simon had to watch him fall off the roof only a centimetre before he could grab the ladder that hung out of the Helicopter. He wanted to jump after him. Catch him and tell him that everything will be okay. A hand held his shoulder before he could start anything stupid. "He is gone son we need to go". Price's words didn't help the tears in Simons eyes. The heart-shattering feeling flooding his chest. He watched his partner fall off to the ground the horror in his eyes haunting him until now.

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Now the question is do we reboot Roach or let Simon die a without his beloved partner. mhhhhh

More a filler chapter to get Simon more involved in the story once again.