𝗬𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗴𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘃𝗼𝘂𝘀 𝗩𝗲𝗻𝗴𝗲𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗲 (ALLURING SERIES #4)

Chapter 35

Chapter 35

I was still crying when my mom left me with no choice. No choice to choose what I want in my life, No choice on how I would like to live my life. And, no choice to choose what's best for me.

I wipe my tears before I slowly raised up my chin to see our helpers. Nakatingin lang silang lahat sa 'kin. Iba't ibang reaksyon ang nakita ko sakanila. Naaawa, galit, at umiiyak. They are the ones who protected my secret. Ngayon na sila naman ang naiipit, I should return their kindness to me. I should protect them.

"S-Sorry po..." umiiyak kong sabi.

"Iha..." rinig kong tawag ni manang.

I shook my head and look at her. "I'm sorry po. K-Kasalanan ko itong lahat. I'm sorry kasi... nadamay kayo. P-Pangako ko po na... h-hindi kayo masisisante. I would take all the blame with me."

"Iha... Suzein,"

Lumapit sa 'kin si manang at niyakap ako. Lalo akong napaiyak dahil doon. I hug her back and cried on her shoulder. She caress my back softly, pinapatahan ako. I really needed a hug, hoping it would heal my wounds.

"Tahan na..."

"K-Kasalanan ko lahat, manang...." humihikbi kong sabi.

Umiling siya. "Wala kang kasalanan. Ang mga taong nasa paligid mo ang dahilan kung bakit ka nahihirapan at nasasaktan."

Manang held my face and wipe my tears away. Her teary eyes broke my heart. I can see on her eyes kung gaano siya nasasaktan para sa 'kin. I'm glad she's here to comfort me. Mababaliw na yata ako sa kakaisip kung paano masosolba itong lahat ng magisa.

"M-Mahal ko po si Trivan. H-Hindi ko po kaya..."

She nodded while caressing my hair. "Alam ko, alam ko..." sagot niya bago ako yakapin ulit.

Hindi ko alam kung anong uunahin ko. Ang kumbinsihin ulit si mommy  o ang pagaayos ng relasyon namin ni Trivan. Its all complicated. I don't know if I can still complete the pieces when it's already broken apart. Kasabay ng pagwasak nito ay siyang pagwasak din ng puso ko. And, I don't know how will I survive again.

I tried to convince my mom about it pero ngayon she completely ignore my pleases. She ignored my true feelings about our situation. Tinuring niya ako na parang ibang tao dahil lang nagmahal ako ng hindi namin kalebel.

"Don't you love me anymore?" I whispered while looking at the screen of my phone.

Magiisang oras ko ng pilit na tinatawagan si Trivan but he's not answering my calls and he's not responding to my messages. Noong isang araw pa ang huli naming usap and I missed his so much. Sa haba ng mga message ko sakaniya ay kahit isa wala man lang siyang reply. I guess, he's really mad at me.

[Bakit ka umiiyak? Sinong umaway sa 'yo?] Katherine said when I tried to videocall her.

She answered at naabutan niya akong umiiyak. Wala akong kahit sinong matawagan. I know she's shooting something and she's probably busy right now pero hindi ko na alam kung sino ang tatawagan ko. Some of my friends are busy sa school and work. I don't have anyone beside me.

I shook my head while crying. "W-Wala..."

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