I'm sorry (A James Hetfield story)

What I've Known

Denise and I just finished up lunch and what not, I wasn't too worried about dinner, because I was full from lunch, Denise wanted to go for a short drive, to nowhere, probably to just get out of the house, I don't blame her, so we drove around for two hours, we got some coffee out, we came back and then I decided to call the kids, and talk to them face to face, I told them all to meet at the house at 6pm at night, I called Fran too, she can come to, and talk to the kids. 

"So, you're okay with Fran being here?" I hope Denise is okay with it.

"Yeah, we are all adults here, and I would work it out with the kids, enough they are not kids anymore." Yeah, I get it, they are 19, 21 and 23, as of right now. I still call them all kids.

"Think it will be weird for them, if they had another sibling or two?" God, I hope not.

"No, why would you think that?" Honey, stop worrying, everything will be okay.

"I don't know, I'm only like 13 years older than Toni." So, what! I don't care.

"You know age doesn't bother me." I kissed Denise lightly on the cheek.

"I know, people will stare at me and poke fun." Fuck them baby.

"Let them, at least I would smack them around." I would too.

"Really?" Of course, honey, I would!

"Yes! Let's get some packing done, so we can talk to the kids, or just me." I can't wait!

"You and Fran, talk to the kids, I will be in the way." Hell no, you won't be.

"You can stay too, it's your home too." Come on honey, don't be too intimidated!

"I know, it's still new to me, having met you last year, falling in love, moving in here, getting married and having a little metalhead around, it's mind blowing." Little metalhead?

"Little metalhead?" What?!

"Did I forget to tell you that, I uh..." Yes? Come on say it!

"What don't tell me, you are?" Uh, already?

"I guess it happened when we were in the tub the other day or night, we weren't doing anything, but I guess you came and well, it, I mean they went inside of me, don't ask me how that even happened, because I sure don't, go figure!" Wait! You got pregnant by me, and we haven't even tried? What the fuck? My luck, oh good God! I closed my eyes and counted to ten.

"I know, I'm surprised too, I didn't think it would happen like this, I thought we would wait, until the wedding night, I'm sorry it had to happen like this." Don't be sorry!

"Honey, don't be sorry for nothing, you didn't do anything wrong, shit just happened for a reason, I wasn't trying to impregnate you, I just relaxing, and I guess I got too excited." True.

"I know, so late last night, I took three tests and well, here." Wow, no shit!

"I love you!" Fran and the kids, just walked in the house, without any notice, oh great! and Denise and I kissing passionately, what an awkward moment for all of us, I thought I said 6pm at night, not at 1pm! I froze for a moment and licked my lips and smiled at Denise.

"Kids? I thought I said at 6, not 1?" I still couldn't turn around; I was deeply embarrassed.

"Mom wanted to come with us, she wanted to come early, she has a hair appointment." Toni whispered across the living room, at 6pm at night? Come on! At least tell me ahead of time, I could have cleaned up the place. The other kids, pretended to look away and Fran was furious.

"Um, I think I need to go use the bathroom." Denise got under me, and ran to the bathroom, great! This is not what I had in mind, but I will deal with it, right after I have a talk with Fran.

"Kids, why don't you go down in the basement and play guitar hero for a moment, I need to talk to your mom." The kids walked down the stairs and, in the basement, to do something, so I can talk to Fran alone, and see what the hell is going on with her and the kids, something is not right.