I'm sorry (A James Hetfield story)

Hit The Lights

I got up as soon as my alarm on my phone went off at 7am, I wanted to beat Denise to the kitchen, to make her some breakfast, I had to get going is well, I figure since, I've sort of involved her with my kids and Fran, not Denise's fault, I guess it was good timing that I met Denise, it wasn't my intention to meet Denise in the bar that night, it just happened and so what if she is a fan, Denise is not a crazy fan, she's quiet and conservate, that is what I love about her, actually that is the many qualities I like about her, nice and calm, not to jumpy, but hey when I was a kid I was all over the place, I started to calm down in my mid 30's, Fran was not going to have any of that, if she was going to stick around, she helped me mature as a man, I do thank Fran for that. I walked into the kitchen, to figure out what I was going to make, hmm pancakes or eggs with bacon, I looked around for whatever Denise had in the fridge, for ingredients. I found some pancake mix, hmm just add water, cool! I can't fuck this up, I'm not a damn chef. I got out the butter and frying pan, with two plates, and whatever else I needed, soon after I made the pancakes, I put everything to the side and covered it, I walked into the bedroom, Denise was sitting up in bed, her hair was kind of all over the place, jeez man, what did you do to her last night, reminds me of the 80's, "hair metal," which isn't really metal, because they all wanted the girls, all we wanted was to rock the world and go full on metal baby! I stood by the door frame, and I gave Denise a smirking look, I was shirtless obviously, but only because the kitchen got to be too damn hot in there, Denise rubbed her eyes for a moment, I walked over to the bed, and I sat down next to Denise, I gave her a light kiss on her lips, Denise gave me a hug.

"Good morning my love." aw it's true, Denise is my love.

"Good morning, James." you know, you can call me something, other than James.

"You can call me anything, other than James, be creative, sexy, but please, just don't call me Jamie." I looked back at Denise, and we smirked and giggled out loud.

"Okay, Harley." Harley? oh, as in Harley Davidson, well okay than, hell yeah!

"Hmm okay, if I'm Harley, then you are Rider, ha-ha." I hope she gets me joke.

"Rider, huh? Jeez I wonder how you came up with that one." I have a sick mind, okay!

"My mind is sick and funny, okay." Denise got off the bed, grabed some clothes and went into the bathroom, to shower and change, I got off the bed to make it quick and went back into the kitchen, to prepare the table and get my things ready for the day, 20 minutes later, Denise came out of the bathroom and into the kitchen, clean and fresh, with her dark hair pulled back. God I wonder what our kids would look like, all of my kids have a mix of Fran and I, Denise has dark hair with brown eyes, I have blonde hair with blue eyes, eh you never know.

"Hey, I made you breakfast." Denise blinked and just stood there in shock.

"You made me breakfast?" Well yeah! for you Rider.

"Yes, for you baby." Denise walked up to the table, and I stopped her, I gave Denise a breathtaking kiss and pulled the chair out for her, I was being a gentleman, I was always one to whomever I was with, I wasn't going to be an asshole, I may seem tough on the outside, but in the inside, I was quiet and caring, not to mention I loved cuddling with Denise.

"Thank you." Denise leaned over the table to kiss me again, aw baby.

"After we are done, I need to go to the lawyers, to talk about my divorce, I know it's over between Fran and I, it's not because on what's going on in our world but it's because we grew apart and I need a new life." I was being honest with Denise, truthfully, I was.

"So, you want me to stay here?" Denise wasn't mad, but I think she wanted to come with me, for support, which was fine, but the lawyers would look at me funny, I thought more to myself.

"It's not that I don't want you to come with me, I really do but the lawyers would look at us funny, it's really none of their business what I do, I just want to protect you, I think you could stay here, I'm not saying you have to do anything, but maybe you can play guitar, or something, maybe prank call Lars, ha-ha or something, but I should be back soon, I promise, I'll even bring you back something, if you want." I smirked at Denise, I took her hand in mind and kissed it.

"I don't really need anything, okay maybe a quart of ice cream and some chips." woah really?

"Okay, ice cream and chips, it is." I sighed softly and leaned over to kiss Denise's cheek, we started to eat breakfast, that was now probably cold, which is fine, cold pancakes are cool too, after we ate, I helped Denise clean up and I got ready to leave, I was at the front door and I was about to leave, Denise walked up to me and gave me a passionate kiss, now I didn't want to leave, but I was going to be late, I didn't know how I was going to get Denise off me.

"I'll be back soon, don't worry, keep yourself busy, call the guys, I love you." Just like that, I left, I couldn't kiss Denise anymore, I was going to get lip gloss all over my damn face, if it hadn't already, I got into my car and looked in the mirror, oh thank God, I started my car up and left for downtown, hopefully this won't take long at all! I ended up taking the back roads, and I just arrived 10 minutes before my appointment was, thank God, I didn't speed but I think I could have, but I didn't feel like being pulled over by the damn cops. I put the car in park, I got my documents, locked the car and walked into the office, I was waiting for Steve to come in.