Calum's POV
I was looking at myself in the mirror, just thinking about how this world didn't need Calum Hood. If anything I was just a huge mistake. If I died no one would miss me, no one would care. They would probably just be relieved that I was gone. I started going through my bathroom jours, trying to find something that would ease my pain. While rummaging through everything I found nothing.
No pills
No blades
Just the view of my reflection made me want to die.
I didn't know what to do so I just broke down right there. Crying, I curled up into just a little ball and thought about how much if a waste I was. Why was I blaming Allison? This was no ones fault but mine. I was the one who screwed up everything. It was all my fault. I didn't know what to do. I was to weak and broken to stand up, so I just laid there on the bathroom floor, crying.
Hours went by, I still laid there on the floor. I was still to weak to stand, so for the rest of the day going into the night, just laid there. I fell asleep then woke up the next morning remembering the horrible things from the previous day.I got up then quickly collapsed on my bed with my phone just listening to music.
When I sat on my bed, the same thoughts from last night were still fresh in my mind. No one would miss me. No one would want to say goodbye. They just want to see me gone.Maybe if I just laid here and didn't leave, the world would forget about me.
Forever.
Danielle's POV
Over time, I had been slowly getting back into the things that I used to do. I was feeling better, but sometimes I would just think about something simple, and my mind runs through a rabbit hole and spirals in all the wrong places of my mind. Luke actually made me smile once which made him extremely happy.
"There's the smile I love" He said to me.
"I think it might be returning for good" I smiled.
He kissed me softly and I felt sparks fly through my entire body.
Then I got a text.
From Calum.
Calum: If I go, would you miss me?
I was completely shocked. I didn't know what to say, what to do I just sat there my eyes locked on the screen.
Was Calum going to commit...
The thought rattled my bones. I was shaking all over. My breath was unsteady, I just didn't expect this.
Luke walked into the room confused at the look on my face.
"What's the matter?" Luke said softly.
I showed my phone and Luke just stared.
"What?" Luke said just as confused as I was.
Out of no where I just started crying.
I didn't want to cry. I knew Calum had hurt me, but he had seemed so hurt, so destroyed over his mistake. But here I was, not caring about Calum, holding this against him. Look where that got him...
Right now for all I knew, Calum could be dead.
