Danielle's POV
(Sorry for all the Danielle's POVS but I can't find another person to really feel the same way)
I slept at the hospital, I couldn't go anywhere else. I didn't care where the hell I slept. I just couldn't go to Luke's, or Michael's. It just didn't feel right leaving Calum. Knowing I was the main reason he did this to himself. A really nice nurse let me into a room next to Calum's, and I couldn't be more thankful. Through the night, when I couldn't bring myself to sleep at all, I would just go into Calum's room and tell him not to leave me. I
"I can not sleep, I can not dream tonight" I say
I hope he can hear me. I need him to hear me.
"Calum, please if you can hear me... I need you to know that, I can't stand to see you and look at you..." I started to cry. I could barely make out the words.
"Ca-Calum, just please don't leave me. I know you feel like you deserved this, but y-you don't. I want to be able to miss you when your thousands of miles away, not when you're d-d-dead" I cried onto his lifeless body.
Wait... what was I saying, what was I thinking? I didn't love, no I didn't like Calum, did I? Luke? No, I thought. To do that to Luke, I would rip his heart out. I can't do that to Luke, he'd never do that to me, he would never try to hurt me like that. I was tired of hurting people, I was tired of overthinking things to the point where I actually believed them. Calum was still important to me. I still needed to be here for him. I didn't know if I had feelings for him, I didn't know about anything anymore, I just wanted to be here for him right now.
"It's been a long day Cal" I smiled trying to hold back more tears.
"I hope one of these days I'll be able to tell about this day, the day that I'll never be able to forget" I said. It was useless now, not wanting cry because I knew I was going to cry.
I woke up the next morning on m the floor of Calum's room. The pain from last night was still fresh in my mind. I guess it wasn't a dream. I guess this was all real. But this was all to real for me. I got up from the floor and looked at Calum. Noting had changed. I think that was both good and bad. Soon, everyone started arriving again, including Luke, who I desperately needed to see after my talk with, well myself. After Luke was there for a while, I knew that I still loved him, but my feelings for Calum were still a blur. Luke offered to stay at the hospital, but honestly, I just didn't want him there. It wouldn't be the same with Luke, just a little more awkward if he was there.
But then the doctor came out if Calum's room with the look of disappointment spread across his face.
