Secrets Pierre Gasly

Chapter 40

Sarah's POV

I wake up with arms wrapped around me once again, I smile to myself turning around so I can face him, I run my hand through his hair "Good morning" I say quietly as his eyes flutter slowly open, "Hey" he smiles at me, damm shivers run down my spine from his crazy morning voice. He plants a small kiss on my head "We have to talk, we can't really avoid it forever," he says quietly while his fingers crease my cheek, "I know" I say letting out a small sigh and looking into his eyes. "I don't want to rush back to us P," I say quietly "I know it sounds hypocritical since I just slept with you yesterday," I say making us both let out a chuckle "But I am serious, we have been apart for 3 years lets slowly ease back into it, into us," I say softly.

"And what if we can't back to us?" He asks quietly, "Like you said we have been apart for 3 years, we both changed, and you definitely did," he asks worriedly but still trying to give me a small smile. "We'll figure it out, but if not, we still will be Ollie's parents and nothing could ever take that away from us," he gives me a little nod "What about where we stay? In the off-season but then also what when the new season starts? I am moving to France soon," he asks quietly, I sigh thinking things over, "I-" I sigh "I just bought a place in Monaco with Laura, I don't want to leave everyone again," I take a deep breath trying to figure the best solution out. "Maybe we can be in both Monaco and France? Whenever you truly need to be in France we will go with you and other times we stay in Monaco." I offer a solution. "Wouldnt that be too much for Ollie?" Pierre asks "To be completely honest, being away from you would be harder for him," I say softly 

He nods taking a little pause before whispering his next question "bu what if I fail him?" he takes a deep breath "What if I can't be the dad he needs? What if what I do is too much for him? S, I-I don't know anything about being a dad" he whispers still worry fills his eyes. I can't help but bring his face between my hands "P, he literally realized you are his dad on his own," I let out a giggle "If that doesn't prove it enough that you are an amazing dad then I don't know what could" I smile at him still holding his face. 

"And the only way you could ever fail him is not being here for him, as long as you are around and watch him, there for him you are never gonna fail him as a dad," I say looking into his eyes "I am not going anywhere," He whispers before rolling on top of me crashing his lips onto mine as a seal of his promise, I hold the side of his face before pulling out of the kiss, "So much for not jumping back to us," I giggle, "I couldn't help it," he smiles before leaning down for another kiss this time with a bit more passion, I giggle into the kiss before wrapping my arms around him to pull him closer to me getting lost in the moment. 

Just as we were losing touch with reality the door opens "Mama!" Ollie calls my name making both mine and Pierre's eyes fly open making him quickly roll off me as Ollie climbs into my bed from my side, I laugh to myself at the situation before pulling Ollie up between me and Pierre "Mama I am hungry," he says smiling to me Pierre smiles reaching for the hotel phone on the nightstand to order us some room service, We spent the whole morning in bed just the three of us as we ate while watching some cartoons, soon Ollie fell asleep between us making us giggle at the fact he only woke up to eat, we cuddle around him letting him sleep. "So, Monaco next?" Pierre asks quietly, I nod "When do you have to go to France first?" I ask whispering, "After new years," I nod, that gives us a good month to hopefully get our shit together. 

Looking at us right now in bed I really, really wanted us to make everything work. Because this was all I ever wanted.

January 20th (Over a month later)

Sarah's Pov

It was the first time we were going over to France with Ollie. Lando, Laura, and Charles are helping me pack as we were planning to stay for a while there. "Is everything good with you two?" Charles asks as he helps me to fold some clothes, "I think so? we have been doing alright, but I don't know, it's sorta like we both tip-toe around each other," I say shrugging a little "What do you mean?" Laura asks lifting an eyebrow, I let out a little sigh "I don't know how to explain," I take a pause "After we slept together in Dubai, there was that old fire we had back then, but it, it just faded away?" I say quietly Charles looks at me confused, "The last thing I want to talk about is your sex life with my best friend, but you mean you guys haven't slept together since then?" He asks raising an eyebrow. I nod, "No, we haven't, he didn't even try to kiss me the week before leaving, as we said goodbye at the airport he barely even hugged me," I say frowning.