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☆ Memories

Song to listen to while reading: my tears ricochet by Taylor Swift

I don't remember much before I met Asra. All I remember is waking up and Asra being there. I didn't know who he was at the time, but I had a feeling I knew him before.

He tried telling me what happened but when I try to remember I get terrible headaches. I've been trying to find a way to regain the years of memories I no longer have.

I'm walking around the market trying to find some ingredients for a spell that might help. I found it in one of Asra's books. I didn't tell him what I had planned in case he tried to talk me out of it.

I finally found what I needed. I paid for it then hid it inside my bag. I started to make my way back to the shop, head down avoiding everything around me.

I looked up every so often to make sure I was going the right way, but suddenly I saw this painting. The man in the painting looked oddly familiar, but I couldn't put a name to his face. I tried to remember but all I received was a headache.

I stopped a woman walking in the street, "Who is that in this painting ma'am?" I asked her. She looked at me as if I was stupid, "That's Count Lucio." she said before walking off muttering to herself.

Was I supposed to know who that was? I continued to walk to the shop, a million questions running through my mind.

As I entered the shop I placed my bag on the counter, and went to look for Asra.

I found him pacing in our room, "Asra?"

He turned to look at me with a shocked expression written over his face, "Y/n where have you've been? You just left without a note, do you know how worried I was?"

I suddenly felt guilty for making him worried, "I'm sorry I went to the market, I thought I would be back before you woke up."

He sighed before walking over to me and engulfing me into a tight hug. "I'm not angry, just worried. Next time at least let me know where you're going so I know you're safe."

He worries too much about me. He seems to panic if he thinks I'm going to get hurt or could be in any danger.

"Why do you worry so much about me?"

This seems to take him by surprise as he pulls away from me, still holding on to me. "Because I care about you, what makes you ask such a question?"

"Sorry, just forget I said anything. I do have one more question though."

"Go on love."

"Who's Count Lucio?" I whisper, even though I didn't mean for it to come out that way.

He is silent for a moment, fear flashes across his face. "Asra, what's the matter?"

"He was the one who died in the fire in the castle two years ago."

I remember being told about the fire, but I remember none of it.

"I felt as though I knew him before, but when I tried to remember I got another headache."

Asra looked like he wanted to say something, but he didn't.

"You know something, don't you?" I ask, suddenly feeling cold.

He slowly nods, "I do."

He knew something about my past, and he didn't tell me? I don't know how to feel right now. Betrayed? Hurt? Confused? All three.

"What is it?" I ask, voice breaking.

"Before you di-... lost your memories you did know Lucio. You were his servant, he kept you a secret. A-and that night- the night of the fire, you were there." He manages to say even though he looks like he is about to break apart.