Beauty and rage

chapter 10~ S

Rage makes us do horrible things, it feels like your heart tightens and it burns, I haven't felt that in a while

But after finding out that the person you thought you killed decade ago is still alive, is some other kind of rage that you can't explain, it usually lasts for a while but this time it only lasted for a moment but then disappeared in realization that I am no longer who I was and I kill with no hesitation

Yesterday  before Silas left he offered help with man's body but i refused, after he left I stared at dead body and thought to myself what should I do to it now, I got close to it and scratched out letter 'S' on his forehead

After few chopping's and placing his parts in pink box I send I where it came from.

I hear someone ring on my door

I swear if its Silas I will-

I open the do and it's not him

"hi delivery for Silvia" he questions

"that's me but didn't order anything"

"yea I know some man did"

"who"

"he treated me not to tell you, I don't know if he was kidding or not tho" he said as he hands me a box

"thanks" I say and close the door

I go to my kitchen and stare at the box wondering what could be inside

Ear?

Finger?

Organs? (if it is someone stole my style wrapping them in pretty boxes)

My thoughts were at guessing which body part it was but when I opened it

Cake slices

Brownie cubes

Cheesecakes

Cookies

Sliced Fudge

Macarons

And small Tarts

If my inner child was alive I would be screaming but no, I am not screaming

There also was a letter

from: S

to: mon amor

What if it's poisoned, I throw the letter and it lands on the other side and there was also written something, I took it and see what it is

No Silvia it's not poisoned

I sigh look at the desserts and thought to myself 'fuck it if I die I die' but then I remember the only reason I choose to stay, the one and only reason I fight to survive and be strong for.

I look at the desserts and than I think if he wants me dead I would already be dead and murdering someone with desserts isn't really way to kill a future leader of Italian Mafia they will want to make fuzz about it

I look at the brownie took it and bite,

It's good, especially when I'm angry I don't know why but yeah.

I started to eat and think to myself about other night

Sleeping with Silas was good, I have fucked lots of man, one night stands,

There is difference between fuck someone and be fucked and it has nothing to do with gender, if you're having sex and woman made you come first it's means she fucked you

I don't make the rules

Okay back to Silas, he was good at it, he was big and as I said before I had been with couple of man so I know when it's big.

I'm not sure what he wants, murder me isn't one of them for sure at least yet.

I cleaned the mess that I made yesterday and now I'm ready to paint the walls, I started of great but...

My height was the problem, I couldn't reach the roof and few inches of end of the wall so I gave up

I know, not something I do but I have better things to worry about, for example

Dimitri mikhailov

I have lots of questions for example how strong is he now,  why is he back for me and most important the thing that makes me go weak

Does he knows

And how much

But that's impossible
No

No

No

That impossible, I'm sure, no ne knows

I sigh and call Scarlett and asked her to find anything and everything about David mikhailov.