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I look at the dead body of children laying in from of me, they didn't even bother to take them away
"you don't have to feel sorry, you had to" boy next to me said
"I don't feel sorry" in fact I don't feel anything
I sit in the cold room wearing one big t-shirt, which used to be white now it's mostly red and brown from dust and blood, I don't know how long I have been here, I lost count, more than week for sure
It's me and other three boys in this room, two of them might be my age maybe little older but other one looks younger,
Suddenly door opens, it's never a good thing, and I see as Dimitri enters the room with a little girl fallowing her, judging by her looks she won't be older than six, she looks scared obviously and is trying to hold in sniffs and tears
Everyone's head turns to me; they know what's about to happen.
All those bodies that a raying here in front of us and all this blood that is pouring from different parts of them, I made it happen, I don't know why he choose me to do all the murdering parts and let others to watch me, he made me kill more people and children than I can count,
Only few of them are left and everyone fears me except one of them.
Dimitri gave me a hint to stand up
"Silvia" Dimitri begins; he comes behind me "you know what to do" he taps on the kid's forehead
I look dead in his eyes and then shift my gaze to a kid who was trembling
"god please let me live" she begins to pray
I look at her with no sympathy and say
"god won't help you" and before she begins to let out cry for mercy I shoot and as her body falls I didn't blink I watch her fall; because I know what coincidence I will get from even blinking once
"see you have learned your lesson, unfortunately you won't get any slit because you haven't blinked" yes you guessed it correctly I would get cut amount of time I blink
"but I feel like you have learned your lesson too well" he pulled out a knife and starts to walk close to me
There is only one reason why I can't shoot Dimitri when I had plenty of opportunities or why Im not killing myself
That's a secret I will take with me till grave and will kill without hesitation if anyone finds out.
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Even though i'm over of it I still get dreams back when I was kidnaped, they hunt me almost every night but it's okay I got used to it
I wish I remembered faces of those boys, I know it happened ten years ago and they won't look the same but still curious but mostly I wonder what that boy looked like, he was the only one that didn't fear me, that's the only reason why he wasn't killed, him and me were ones who didn't show any fear and since Dimitri loved faces that show fear, we weren't good use for it.
Other kids on the other hand were terrified, they were begging and praying not to die, I lost faith in god long time ago
Yes I am an atheist
I believe we were born atheists, people just choose to believe in gods, they need something to believe in because they don't believe in themselves, and if you ask me god isn't as good as they say he is, why you may ask, that's because if he's a truly good person or whatever you call as they claim, why does he doesn't help poor children who beg him day and night not to get killed, not to be tortured but as much as six-year-old Silvia would beg him to stop all those tortures, guess what, it never stopped, it become worse
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