Thirty Five

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YOUR POV

In and out. Calm down. The whole world knows my shit.

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@scarlethill3736 : My favourite besties ❤️

@user196486 : i low-key ship them
\/ @wandavisionstan296496 : Wanda is dating Vision and Y/n was dating Natasha
\/ @user196486 : they'd still be cute though

@romanogers4life : I'm glad Nat cheated on you
\/ @user2946486 : stfu you ugly bitch

@wanda.max : Ewww. I have no makeup on 🙈
\/ @yn.hill : you look beautiful bestieee :))

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Wanda is in a safehouse. Both her and Pietro are. I miss them so fucking much, like I'm glad she called me to check up on me but I really could've done with someone to watch movies with and spend time with.

- y/n : Hey

- Tony : What you need kid?

- y/n : Dunno. Felt like coming to see you

- Tony : Nothing to do with the articles and the fact Wanda is at a safe house?

- y/n : Nope. Whatcha doing?

- Tony : Just tinkering

- y/n : You should put gem stones on your suit

- Tony : I'm not a 5 year old girl. I'm not bejewelling my suit

- y/n : Well I think it would look pretty

- Pepper : Y/n, hi. How are you feeling?

- y/n : I'm good. How are you?

- Pepper : Good thank you

I love Pepper and Tony. Their relationship and Wanda and Vision's relationship are cute.

- Pepper : I heard about the break up and articles. I'm sorry

- y/n : It's fine

- Pepper : Hmm. If you need to talk then you can ask FRIDAY for my number. I was just coming by to say goodnight. It's getting late Tony, don't stay up all night

- Tony : I won't

It's Tony, he doesn't listen to anyone's opinion on his sleeping habits. I'm pretty sure that man runs on coffee and 2 hours sleep, maximum.

- y/n : FRIDAY, who is awake?

- FRIDAY : Natasha is the only other team member awake

I didn't realise she was back.

- y/n : Brilliant

- Tony : You leaving already?

- y/n : Yeah. If I can't bejewel your suits then there is nothing to do down here

- Tony : Well have fun, try to get some sleep or something

- y/n : Mhm. You too

Once again, Tony won't listen to me, he doesn't need sleep.

- Natasha : What're you doing up?

Not talking to you, that's what.

- Natasha : How are you detka? I know you struggle with your sleep

- y/n : Don't call me that

- Natasha : You don't even know what it means

- y/n : Yes Natasha, I do. Surprisingly I'd play dumb whenever you called me it so that maybe in the future you could teach me Russian. So maybe it would give me another reason to spend more time with you

- Natasha : I didn't mean to hurt you

- y/n : But you did

- Natasha : It doesn't seem like it

- y/n : You want me to act hurt? What do you want to see Nat? Me crying every time you enter a room, me knocking at your door in the middle of the night begging to come in. I'm doing everything I can to hold myself together Natasha, so I don't do those things

- Natasha : I want you to do those things. I want you to cry when you see me and beg to spend the night next to me because then maybe you'd listen to me. You're being so stubborn and won't listen to me

- y/n : Natasha please. I want to go to bed and I want to get over this. If you want to be with Steve then just do it, you don't have to ask for my permission or wave it in my face or disappear for a week to make me feel better

I want to be upset but I refuse to do it in front of Natasha. She doesn't get to make me feel this way and then comfort me.

- Natasha : I didn't want to kiss him. I did it so me and Steve didn't get seen by Rumlow and killed. I thought you'd rather I kissed Steve then got shot

- y/n : Why would you have to hide from Rumlow? He's an agent

- Natasha : There were things happening in SHIELD that you don't know. You were moved to the Avengers when things turned south. SHIELD was going to be disbanded soon and Fury could only save a few agents. That's why the articles came out. I didn't mean to kiss Steve. I was trying to stay alive, you told me to stay safe. Didn't stop me getting shot and tearing it open a million times

- y/n : You got shot?

- Natasha : Yeah?

- y/n : Let me see

- Natasha : No- Y/n- Stop

- y/n : Natasha sit the fuck down. Who stitched this up? It looks like a toddler did it. We're going to medical right now and I'm stitching this back up. You can talk while I do it

- Natasha : Does this mean you're not mad at me?

- y/n : No, I am so fucking mad at you. For getting hurt, for kissing Steve, for not making me listening

It doesn't matter if I'm mad right now. I need to re-stitch Natasha's bullet wound so that the scar isn't as nasty. It'll be pretty nasty anyway. The edges around the wound are torn up because of the amount of times the stitches have been ripped. Natasha hates the scars on her body no matter how much I tell her that it tells her story, from her cruel childhood to when Clint saved her and to now, to us.

- y/n : Start from the beginning

- Natasha : Me and Steve hacked the hard drive, Rumlow tracked out location, someone took a photo of me and Steve kissing so that Rumlow wouldn't recognise us. I got out of there and scrubbed my face so hard. I hated every second of it. I spent the whole time thinking about you and then when I got shot I kept telling myself that I had to get help to get home to you, to show you that I was alive. Kissing Steve went out my mind and I just needed you but then you were mad at me and then I went on the mission with Maria and had to leak that information to get SHIELD dissolved and I wanted to go under for a week. I needed to get away from the headlines calling me a monster

- y/n : It didn't mean anything?

- Natasha : Nothing. You have to believe me Y/n. I fucking love you so much, I- I just-

- y/n : I got you. It's okay. Shhh, it's okay

- Natasha : I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry

At the end of the day it doesn't matter what happened, Natasha has a power over me and I would do anything for her. I can't let her cry and beg for my forgiveness because the truth is I forgave her as soon as I saw her.

Authors Note
Have a drink and
a snack please

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