2. Little Butterfly

Chapter 26: U

I woke up a few minutes ago but Carter was busy in a meeting so I quietly left his office to grab a snack.

I needed something to take away the weird feeling in my stomach that I got from the craziest dream I had.

I figured I was just hungry but the toast wasn't helping at all and I felt uncomfortable.

Trying to ignore the feeling I went upstairs to take a shower in my room but warm water was helping so I rested my head against the shower wall standing underneath the water.

Closing my eyes in hopes to figure out what was wrong with me I relaxed the moment I felt an arm around my waist.

Without realizing it a soft moan left my mouth before I could stop it.

Turning around I was met with dark blue eyes filled with need and desire but for what I don't know.

Placing my hands on his chest I traced every tattoo I could see, running my fingertip along the dark lines littering his torso he placed both his hands on my cheeks cupping my face.

Standing on my tippy toes I pressed my lips against his allowing him to take control.

Swiping his tongue against my bottom lip, asking for entry I tried pulling away unsure of what to do but his hands quickly moved from my face to my butt holding me in place while lightly squeezing my cheeks.

Gasping at the action he took the opportunity to explore my mouth and after a few seconds, I did the same.

What was meant to be a normal kiss turned into much more when he pushed me against the glass door, wrapping my legs around his very naked waist.

The weird feeling I felt earlier only grew and the need for him to fix it was clawing its way to the surface.

"La mia piccola farfalla"

Moving his hand down he played with my folds rubbing his middle finger on my sweet spot (clit).

Whimpering at the unknown touch I wanted more.

I needed more.

"Baby!".

Going in circles I held his wrist needing something to keep me steady but failed miserably when I felt him trusting a finger into me and then another.

A warm feeling was building up in my stomach and I felt the weird feeling of earlier lessening.

At this rate, I was a moaning mess.

"Iris! I'm coming in".

The bathroom door swinging open pulled me out of whatever state I was in leaving me a mess.

An angry one at that.

The feeling returned worse this time and seeing a worried Carter standing at the door made me realize that I was what movies would describe it as.

Fantasizing.

Not focusing on the fact that I was standing naked in front of Carter I closed the water before pushing open the shower door.

Like he was lost in his own thoughts Carter only stood at the door taking in every inch of my uncovered self.

Grabbing a towel I stormed past him needing to get dressed and something to get my mind off of what I just did in the shower.

I was irritated and that made me mad.

I think the fact that I've been spending most of my time with Carter was playing with my mind.

I like him I'd even go far enough to say that I love him but never out loud.

Never out loud.

Knowing I'd get rejected the moment I confessed that I had any feelings for him made my heart ache for something I couldn't have.

I know he spends time with me, I sleep in his bed every night, he watches Disney movies with me every time I ask and he always makes sure I'm good before going to work but that doesn't mean he has feelings for me who would.

'No one will ever love you, Iris'.

'Your useless and only meant to be a toy thrown around not cared for'.

Damon's words found a place in my mind and decided to stay for the rest of the day like it was on repeat.

I couldn't take a walk with Zeus without hearing them, I couldn't play with the ducks without imagining them saying it to me and I couldn't be in the same room as Carter my favorite place to be without feeling heartbroken.

I had to accept the fact that I wasn't going to be happy with him as my ride or die.

I had to accept the fact that I had to be happy with him as a friend, are we, friends though?

Calling him a friend was a little far-fetched so let's just go with a roommate.

Getting ready for bed I decided to sleep in my own room tonight and just in case Carter had the idea to carry me to his room when he was done working I locked the door so he couldn't.

Just in case.

Not even Zeus was with me this time I needed to be alone. He scratched the door a few times but I just stayed in bed holding my favorite stuffy while sucking my pacifier for a little while hoping it would make me feel better like it use to.

Rolling around under the covers I remembered that I forgot to feed the ducks and I know Michael won't because they accidentally joined him in the shower yesterday thinking that it was their very own special pond.

Looking at the time I knew both Carter and Michael wouldn't be home because tonight they had to go to some club so I unlocked my door and gave the ducks some food before running back to my room.

When I got back Zeus was already underneath the sheets glaring at me.

I couldn't lock him out again so I simply laid down next to my cuddle buddy for the night.