I hate school. I've been called things a few times, mostly for wearing a binder and having short hair I won't tell Will because it'll just draw more attention to it and that's the last thing I want. I'm used to bullies. I can drown it out. I have bigger things to worry about anyway. I don't know how to explain it. There's this bully in my head who makes all these rules I have to follow and if I don't follow them exactly then something bad will happen but if I do it all exactly right then I'm allowed to be happy but I never get to that part somehow and I know there are people who want to help but I don't think anyone will understand and even if they do what can they do about it because it controls every single aspect of my life and I want it gone but I also don't know who I'd be without it because it's like a part of me.
