Yesterday I was hanging out with Eleanor and I started feeling really nervous for some reason. Like panic-attacky nervous. She asked if I wanted her to take me home and I said yes. I went home and then I relapsed. I told Will. He came over and it made me feel really guilty but I was really glad he was there. Then Eleanor told me that she kissed Livi. She said it was an accident but I was still mad. Today we talked. And I told her I was really stressed and I wanted to think of us more like friends. Who sometimes kiss. Then we kissed for the first time since before I got sick and she drove me home. And then I found out she wanted to do the same exact thing with Livi. I confronted her about it and she said "why not?" and I have never been so mad in my life. I can't believe I thought Eleanor seemed genuine she's the fakest person I've ever met. I broke up with them because I can't trust her anymore. She took advantage of me which I hate more than anything.
