Michaela's journal

why do i ruin everything

I really did ruin Livi's life. It's my fault she's in the state she's in. I'm she reason she wants to die. Because I was so selfish, wanting what wasn't mine. What I couldn't have. What I've been told so many times is for other people but not for me because I haven't earned it yet. If I'd left them alone everything would be fine. They could've worked it out eventually. But instead I got in the way and ruined everything and now my own selfishness is going to kill me.