Whatever happens just know I'm not sorry
I'm sick of Livi getting in the way
I'm sick of Eleanor lying to me
I'm sick of not knowing what's true and what isn't
I'm so sick of it
Michaela's journal
Table of contents-
December~ hi
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i dont know why i did it
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sexualities are confusing
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i hate fighting with my brother
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my fault
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i'm too nice for my own good
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2022 is over
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i'll be the better man this time
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i don't understand love
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jealously, jealousy
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i love my brother
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i can't focus
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i feel like a burden
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it gives me an ick
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Nico is dying
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bye
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i'm back
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rant
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i'm sorry
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i hate myself
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bullies
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he's gone
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nevermind
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my brother
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i'm scared
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he's back
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and i thought high school might be okay
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i'm an Evan Hansen kinnie
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i'm not okay
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i'm really not okay
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i hate being the youngest
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i'm trying
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i'm scared of everything
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numb
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Ollie
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i hate this
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i'm so selfish
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i wish i was normal
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future kids
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i've never felt like this before
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i don't believe in soulmates
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stupid
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she could kill me
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i ruined everything
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i don't pretend
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Eleanor is dating Livi
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not fair
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i'm jealous
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against the rules
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it doesn't help
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why am I like this?
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home
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forget
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why i am the way i am
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valentine's day
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my grandparents are dead (to me at least)
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i can't take this anymore
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why is someone always in the hospital?
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my dad is weird
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guess i'll have 7 years of bad luck
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i miss Austin
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i'm really confused
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i love Taylor Swift
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i hate it when we fight
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my first quest
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i really hate my brother
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Eleanor likes me
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i like Eleanor
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when has the universe ever been fair?
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most people don't stay
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i love you too
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i miss my brother
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i don't know what to do
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i'm just sorry for everything
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bandaids don't fix bullet holes
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i guess it's okay
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i'm not a bad person
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i know all about trauma
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"it"
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March
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i'm dying
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i'm a horrible person
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kids, alcohol is bad
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i love Eleanor
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no matter the season
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what if i'm not good enough
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i feel so sick
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irony is cruel
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is it so wrong?
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why can't people be honest
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i got to use a sledgehammer
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does Hades allow this?
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i want to get better
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four winds
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i hate that word
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maybe i overreacted?
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fire
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i want to do something stupid
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this place is hell
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oops Kayla that's a naughty word
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i'm going insane
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surgery
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i wish i hadn't left
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genders are weird
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not okay not okay not okay
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picture of you
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don't know what i'm feeling
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i'm so glad my dad married a rich guy
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i dont't know
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talk
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disappear
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still numb
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recovery
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Livi
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wish
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roommate
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swear
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thinking
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me again
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facetime
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wish i didn't care
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why do people cheat?
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first day
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archery
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how i think relationships should be
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love triangles are so cliché
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why do i ruin everything
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now those don't even sound like words anymore
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ruin
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breathe
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pointing fingers
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duty
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infirmary
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guilt
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mind is a prison
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homesick
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Will
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you can't save everyone
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what-ifs
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this isn't working
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not worthless
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Atabey
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things i like about myself
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too far gone
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feel better
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Abby
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visitors
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idea
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Isabella
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what i want
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i really hate fire
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so stupid
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speech
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10 things i learned in the past year
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i kinda really hate owning a uterus
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speak now
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weird
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forget everything
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future
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i'm such a loser
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i will never learn
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stay stay stay
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next chapter
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finally
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manipulating
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what a day
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one thing
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done
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because i liked a girl
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please
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just in case
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before Eleanor
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why
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changes
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understand
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forget it
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even more new things
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this is so embarrassing
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why does everything have to change
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tired
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someday
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not my fault (for once)
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thief
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facts
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why i love Eleanor
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missing out
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dream
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me
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question
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the thing
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sick
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snap
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can she just not
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i really hate those kids i'm not going to lie
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strong
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tightope
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don't tell anyone
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easier
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miss you already
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to be continued:0
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