Theirs- Completed

Chapter Eighteen

We'd been up Ingleborough and gotten back down all before 1pm. It had been an early start but honestly, I felt more rested this morning than I had in a while. Now we were sat having a little picnic in a meadow by the bottom. 

"That is not THE train track from Harry potter." 

"Yes it is!" I laughed, laying my head down in his lap as I chewed on another grape. "They filmed loads of bits in Yorkshire. Malham cove was a big part too." 

"How do you know this much about it?" 

"It's a small village, word gets around fast." He chuckled. "So what did you think city boy? Have I convinced you that Yorkshire is the best place in the world?" 

"I didn't need convincing Lil. You being from Yorkshire automatically makes it the best place in the world." 

"Soppy." I grinned up at him as he stuck his tongue out dramatically. "I used to sit here with the boys you know. After school, weekends, whenever we could. Right here. Robin taught me to play guitar here." 

"Here?" 

"Well more like there." I pointed to the other side of our blanket. "But yeah. I remember when we turned 16 and Robin's older brother bought us our first drinks. We were out here and we got wasted. We ended up just running around and spinning in circles, laughing our heads off for hours." My smile slowly faded. "I miss that. When things were uncomplicated and easy and I didn't have to worry about making big decisions like this." He brushed some hair out of my face. "What do I do Harry?" 

"Well, what feels right?" 

"I don't know. Neither option feels right." 

"What, going or staying?" 

"Yeah. Going feels like I'm setting myself up for trouble, but staying feels like I'm turning my back on them. And both of those feels just as wrong as each other." 

"So it's a battle between yourself and the boys? Who's more important to you kind of thing?" 

"I guess yeah." He nodded, looking up at our surroundings. 

"I think you know who you are better than anyone Lil. If you go and you feel uncomfortable, it's not like you're trapped there. You can come back whenever you need to. If you stay, it might be harder to get out to them if you change your mind. I know how important the guys are to you and I can see how important you are to them. I don't think they're going to put you in a situation where you're going to get worse. Not intentionally. But if you don't feel like it's good to even risk it then that's your choice." 

"You want me to go?" 

"It's your choice to make beautiful. I'll be here no matter what you decide." 

"3 months isn't that long really." 

"Not really, and I bet it'll fly by too. I can imagine you'll be laughing most of the time, you can watch them perform, spend some proper time with them. You might find it fixes everything that feels really broken right now. It would definitely make things less murky." 

"Will you miss me?" 

"Lil. You were gone 3 days and I was going insane. You'll just have to face time me every day for work. We'll book it in the calendar so you can't escape it." I chuckled. "Some space might be good for us though. I don't think me having a crush on my manager is a great idea." 

"Yeah probably not." I tried to sit up but he furrowed a brow, pressing one finger against my forehead so I had to lay back down. 

"No one's here it's fine. We're just 2 people in a meadow having a picnic after a 6 hour hike." 

"I have a question for you in that case." 

"Oh go on." He sat back on his hands. 

"What would have happened, on Saturday, if the boys hadn't come in." I sat up slowly, watching his face change as I moved so I was sat on his lap, legs on either side of him. The smirk on his face grew as he sat up a little, putting his hands gently on my hips as I put my arms around his neck. 

"I don't know what would have happened Lil. I do know I was fuming at first when they came in." 

"Me too." I giggled. "I was having fun." 

"Oh you were?" 

"Mhm." 

"We can do it again if you want to." My forehead was already leaning against his gently. "You can't stay there though." 

"Stay where?" 

"Sat on my like this." He looked down and back up at me quickly. "I won't be able to control myself if I'm kissing with you whilst you're sat there. I'm barely managing it right now." I smirked, adjusting how I was sat by moving my hips. "Oh now that's just fucking mean." I laughed as he laid his head back and pushed down on my hips so I was sat on him with more force. 

"I should stop right?" He chuckled. 

"Hold tight." 

"What?" He smirked, wrapping an arm around my waist and smoothly flipping me over, laying me down on the blanket slowly and delicately. "Oh shit." I giggled as I realised he was now between my legs.

"Oh shit indeed." He looked down at me, gently biting his lip. "3 months you'll be away huh?" 

"I guess so." I put my fingers in his hair, holding onto the base of his neck. "You're going to forget me aren't you?" 

"Not a chance Lilly. You are unforgettable." He brought his face in lower. "I couldn't forget about you even if I tried to." 

"I don't want to love him Harry." 

"I know you don't. You want to move on right?" I nodded. "Move on with me." 

"What?" 

"Let me help you forget him. Call it a rebound or just fun or whatever. I don't care. I don't like seeing you upset by him when he clearly doesn't care about you like you do him. You said you don't want to love him right? That you don't want him but you haven't found anyone else you like?" 

"Yeah." 

"Well I mean if I'm not mistaken, you did just climb on my lap and grind on me." I laughed, laying my head back. "There's other people out there for you Lil. If you don't want me then fine, but you need to look past him. There other guys that would gladly treat you miles better than he's willing to." 

"I don't want other guys." I looked at my hands that were still in the back of his hair. "I want you." 

"You do?" He moved his head back slightly and I nodded. 

"I was really upset when you hung up me yesterday. I missed hearing your voice a lot more than I'd care to admit. And I don't know what's in your fucking aftershave, it has to be crack because it's fucking addictive." He laughed. "And I like how you kissed me too." 

"Oh you did?" He smirked and I nodded through the grin on my face. "Be a shame if someone was to kiss you again then?" 

"The biggest shame." We were just above a whisper as his lips were almost on mine. I could feel the heat off them they were that close. "I can't guarantee this will work Harry." 

"Oh well. It'll be fun to try anyway." I giggled again but his lips were staying there. I was dying to have them on me again. Scowling at him didn't work, just made him laugh quietly against me. 

I'd had enough, pulling his head down with my hands that were in his hair and lifting my own head until they had no choice but to collide. 

So much better now I had him on me again. If I was going on tour with the boys, I want to soak up every second of him.