Sunstreaker's Charge ✔️

Ch. 46 Mistake

Sunstreaker's P.O.V.
Ratchet agrees with my plan; a dinner date as I did two weeks ago. Unfortunately, he still doesn't want Lily to watch T.V. I can take her for a walk like last time. Mirage is happy to help.
"I can't believe that was two weeks ago," he smiles.
"I still feel like we're not together."
"You're used to not having anyone, but Sideswipe care about you. This is a learning process for you as it is for Lily."
I oddly feel ok telling Mirage about my anxiety and how terrified Lily was the two times I passed out, and my nightmare before the meeting where Lily learned my history.
"She loves you. You have to trust that things will work out," Mirage says confidently.
We plan on keeping the menu the same as last time though I need to ask Luke what else Lily likes to eat.
"When are you going to have spaghetti for dinner with her?" Mirage smiles.
"Not for a long time."
I get mine and Lily's breakfast.

Lily is still asleep when I return. Glad we have covers to keep food warm available in the kitchen. I told Lily I'd study her overnight. She slept all night. I'm still worried she'll still have nightmares. 
While waiting for a half-hour for Lily to wake up, I work on a sketch. Lily is happy seeing me still here when she wakes up.
"And with breakfast," I smile and kiss her.

Lily has to use the bathroom before we eat. While waiting for her, Ratchet tells me Lily, and I are partially discharged. We can go to our art room for a few hours. Lily also needs to study for her test.
"How long are you limiting what she can do?" I ask.
"Depends; she might be recovered enough for a slow return to activities. As I said, she's also recovering from a skull fracture. Though minor, she might need a little more time to recover. Also, she's been stressed about you. I'm going to hold off allowing her to return to activities for a few more days."
I know Lily would like to focus on studying for her test next Friday.
"Ok, how about a camping trip next weekend?"
"Too soon to tell."
It's odd hearing Ratchet regret giving disappointing answers.

Lily is back in bed when I return to the room.  I smell she's dealing with the human femme version of the heat cycle. I'll let Jasmine handle this. However, I'm unsure if anything changes in that part of body function being a hybrid. Not like it matters if this is making her think about fragging. We're not allowed to yet.
"What?" She asks.
"Uh...."
Glad Lily doesn't try to get an answer out of me. She's happy to hear we can go to our art room after breakfast.
"Hopefully, soon we can do more activities together, like training."
"You need to get more muscle and gain weight. Especially if you want to be a soldier."
Ratchet told me Lily is a tiny seventy pounds for her height of four foot seven inches.  Oddly, he's worried, yet Lily's family is not worried.

Lily's P.O.V.
"There's another anti-transformers group out there. Even if it's not funded by the government, what if shit happens again? It's a long six years before I can join N.E.S.T. and —."
"Six years, don't worry about that. You need to worry about your weight first. You'd be told you're too skinny to join the military if you were eighteen. I know Optimus reported what we found."
"Fine, I'll worry about how you've passed out twice in twenty-four hours."
"How about worrying about your recovery? Come on, let's work on our painting. Then maybe Ratchet will let you do a light workout. If not, you can watch me," Sunstreaker kisses my forehead, "don't worry."

As we walk down the hall past a group of soldiers, I can tell they're staring at us and hear one comment about how I'll be dead soon, though they think they're whispering enough. If I can hear that, then that means Sunstreaker heard. I can't say anything to them, and I don't want this to be the subject we discuss while painting. Even if he will not kill in front of me, knowing he will kill that soldier is hard to ignore.

We work on the painting for an hour before I feel a headache starting. Sunstreaker apparently knows and decides we're done for now. However, it's also been hard to ignore the cramping. I hope he didn't notice that. That's all I need for him to panic that something serious is wrong with me and pass out again. I don't think he knows about human females' monthly issues.

Ratchet lets me take over-the-counter pain relief. He thinks I'll be fine without the strong pain relief I've been getting and takes out my IV. I try to study, but Sunstreaker refuses to let me until the pain relief kicks in.
"I'm not the one who passed out twice in twenty-four hours," I argue.
"You will not let that go, are you?"
"Excuse me for worrying about you!"
I didn't think Sunstreaker would leave the room. My eyes water. Jasmine rushing in within seconds.
"Did he hurt you?!" She asks.
"No," I reply as tears roll down my face.
I didn't think she'd hug me.

Sunstreaker's P.O.V.
I knew I'd yell at her, even while thinking I don't want to. I had to leave, but I know that wasn't a good idea either.
Who pissed you off now? Sideswipe asks through the bond.
Lily yelled at me. No human yells at me! Yet, while thinking she needs to be put in her place, I hated hearing how worried she is. I know walking out was dumb, but probably better. Hopefully, I can talk to Ratchet without getting a lecture.
What did she say?
She's worried I'll unexpectedly pass out again. Maybe I will. This situation is causing high anxiety, and I guess I can only handle war anxiety. I explain.
So, did you run out worried you'd pass out?
No, worried I'd yell at her and hurt her more than that, I walked out.
Just another problem to deal with. Lily doesn't know about our date. I guess now it's to apologize.