You Deserve Better

⇒ CHAPTER ONE

𝕀𝕤𝕒𝕚𝕒𝕙 𝟙:𝟙𝟠
ℂ𝕠𝕞𝕖 𝕟𝕠𝕨, 𝕝𝕖𝕥 𝕦𝕤 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕤𝕠𝕟 𝕥𝕠𝕘𝕖𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣, 𝕤𝕒𝕪𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕃𝕠𝕣𝕕: 𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕘𝕙 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕤𝕚𝕟𝕤 𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕝𝕚𝕜𝕖 𝕤𝕔𝕒𝕣𝕝𝕖𝕥, 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕪 𝕤𝕙𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕓𝕖 𝕒𝕤 𝕨𝕙𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕒𝕤 𝕤𝕟𝕠𝕨; 𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕘𝕙 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕪 𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕣𝕖𝕕 𝕝𝕚𝕜𝕖 𝕔𝕣𝕚𝕞𝕤𝕠𝕟, 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕪 𝕤𝕙𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕓𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕞𝕖 𝕝𝕚𝕜𝕖 𝕨𝕠𝕠𝕝.

𝙴𝙳𝙴𝙽
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Tears soak my face at the realisation that I've done it again, My sniffles so loud i find a snort in there. My eyes are bleeding red, my knees scorching from how long I've been on them.

"God im so sorry... i wont do it again, i just don't know how to stop-" I'm cut off by my own cry, tears streaming onto my cheeks before hitting the floor when i dip my head down to it,

Ive said this all before, I've done it all. Swore the same thing to God before i fell into my own trap of lust yet again,

My fingers curl when I remember what i did to take away my own purity once again, this was supposed to be the last time. I wasn't supposed to do this again.

"God i need your help, i still want you to think of me like I'm your daughter but how can you when i keep doing this?" I bite down on my bottom lip to stop myself from bawling too loud.

There's no feeling worse than disappointing the one person who has never once let you down...

"Eden what's going on with you?!" I all but slap my hands against my face to clear my tears away when my best friend and Dorm roommate serenity rushes in through the doors with her books in her hand.

"Nothing! I just... stubbed my toe." I almost cringe at how horrible my lie is, She tilts her head at me completely unimpressed by my fib, her long cornrows falling to her side as she squints her dark brown eyes at me.

"Stubbed your toe? What kind of idiot do you think i am?" Her white teeth are so perfect, her gap in the middle of her teeth perfectly represents our culture and they shine against her light skin as she walks over to her side of the room.

I get off of my knees in a scurry and turn my back to her, A frown falls on my face when i look towards my messy bed that's only a reminder of the mistake i made once again,

"Eden, we have been friends for our entire lives. Thats twenty three years and counting. Don't think you can start lying to me now." I don't face her, i always find it hard to look people in the eyes after this.

Me and Serenity grew up in Nigeria together, Her dad is best friends with mine so she would always come over to our compound and we would play together for hours.

Our families are so close that when baba got offered the opportunity to move out of Lagos and start fresh in Philadelphia for his work when i was just 12 years old serenity's and her father moved right along with us.

I love her so much, she's been with me through thick and thin which makes it so harder to have to hide this secret from her but this sin is never talked about, I don't know who i can trust to tell...