You Deserve Better

⇒ CHAPTER FORTY SIX

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PSALM 23:4

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

My body hurts. It hurts so much that it forces me to remember what happened last night.

Waiting for him to come back, breaking down when he wasn't answering his door, thinking that he was doing it on purpose because maybe he really did hate me. The millions of thoughts that ran through my head all while waiting for the door to open and when it didn't... my body slumping down to the cold wet porch floor in full surrender.

I groan and rub my eyes in shame before throwing the covers over my- wait.

Covers?!

I jolt up from my comfortable lying position and realise i am in aces bed, which means he let me in? If im being honest everything yesterday was a complete blur to me... it was so late and i was so hurt i just.

"Ughhhh!" I slam my body back down on the bed realising im still wearing the same clothes that i have been wearing for days now.

By days i mean ever since i found out about my baba dying. Some how i just haven't found any strength to change, or shower.

I give myself 10 more seconds to drown myself in my own self pity, those ten seconds quickly become twenty, then thirty and then longer than i can count.

I stare at the ceiling stuck in my own thoughts praying that ace doesn't just appear from nowhere to see me right now. I look horrible, I probably smell worse. I have been doing all i can to avoid looking at myself anymore, mirrors have become my enemy but the thought that ace let me in yesterday means he did see me already and its killing me!

I wince thrashing myself around the covers with the small strength that i manage to muster up before i hear some low murmurs coming from behind a closed door.

I immediately shoot up from the bed with a squeal, i need to get out of here! I rush to my weak feet and run around the room looking for my shoes

Where are they!

I look under the bed. Nope.

Under the couch. Nope!

The voices only sound like they are getting closer and clearly I'm right because i hear the crack of the door opening just barely giving me enough time to duck down behind the couch.

I hold my breath hoping to God that i cant be heard, that maybe i would become invisible if i stop breathing for a few moments.

"Look man, im telling you that it's gonna be worth it. You should come with us-" I know that voice too well,

Zephaniah

I must have been knocked out cold if i didn't hear him come in, somehow he always makes his presence known.

"I think this will be enough for now zeph, im just starting out with all of this remember?" Ace pleads, the footsteps come to a hault as they continue their conversation

"I know street evangelism sounds scary at first but it's no different than having a regular conversation with somebody." I duck further down behind the couch scooching towards the edge of the floor, i peer out of the side of the couch to see two long legs standing closer than i am comfortable with.