The Malfoy Affair

All Men Do Is Lie

Renn's Pov

It's been a few weeks now since Lucius and I had that big blow out at the lake.

Ever since that day when I said to him that I was a burden and then threw the fact that he called our baby a bastard in his face he's hardly spoken to me unless it was deemed necessary.

Even then though I was still only getting one word responses most of the time. Maybe a whole sentence here and there if I was lucky enough.

I honestly can't tell if he's upset at his actions and words or mine. He's the most stubborn and frustrating wizard I've ever met.

It's not like I was expecting him to open up to me in anyway but this was worse than the silent treatment. He was robotic. I could tell that his occlumency shields were up and into full force.

Every time he's looked at me he has this glazed over look in his eye.

The only other time I've seen that was when Draco would be occluding whenever we talked about what we had to do to Dumbledore before the night that changed everything.

Speaking of Draco.

Fuck I missed him so much.

Every day I keep sitting here and replaying our final conversation in my head.

I wish I had someone to talk to about how I'm feeling especially because I'm getting more and more hormonal as the days are going on. Most of my days are spent crying.

Even though Lucius is in the same room as me it's like he's miles and miles away mentally.

I want to say that it's better than us bickering with each other constantly but it's not.

It's worse than being with a ghost. One of the ghosts from Hogwarts would be preferable to this.

He hasn't made another attempt to kiss me since that day and even more alarming than that he hasn't tried to fuck me.

When we were at the manor he was still making an effort to be close with me physically.

This is the longest we've gone without sleeping together since the day he got me pregnant.

I finally decided that I had enough of him icing me out. Being isolated out here was hard enough without the only company I have here outside of a house elf shutting me out.

I had been ignoring him up until this point for the most part as well but no more.

It was after dinner when I decided to have a bath and get ready for bed but with no intentions of sleeping any time soon.

I was going to get him to pay attention to me.

Despite of his words a few weeks ago he hasn't been bathing with me probably trying to avoid temptation. He instead has had Tippy sit in the bathroom with me while I bathed.

Once I finished my bath I got out and made my hair and face look presentable. I decided before I even took my bath that I wasn't going to get dressed afterwards. I was going to go to the room Lucius was sitting in only in my towel.