admire - jiara love story - obx fanfic

13. forgive myself

"jj!!" i scream. "jj please! please!!" i cry. "please get up!! please open your eyes" i scream.

"please! sarah please! come on!" kie says, shaking her hand... "sarah! sarah please, please open your eyes!" i shout.

they put an oxygen mask on him and try to give him some oxygen, to allow him to breathe again. i watch as nothing happens.

he puts an oxygen mask over her mouth. they push back down on sarah's chest again, but her body just shakes underneath them. "please" i say. nothing. "please, sarah please" john b cries. nothing. "wake up!" cleo cries. "sarah wake up!". nothing. "please sarah, i love you" john b says. nothing.

we get to the hospital and they run him inside. i follow them through the hospital, until someone tells me i can't follow him anymore.

we rush through the hospital, following sarah who's still unconscious. we watch sarah get taken into a room.

i'm sat in the corridor of the hospital, with my head in my hands.

i lean my forehead against the wall as i cry.

my heart hurts. it really hurts.

my heart hurts. it really hurts.

kiara pov:

these situations are way too similar for my liking. it's stressing me out. i'm feeling a lot of different emotions right now. anger, for rafe who tried to shoot my boyfriend but instead shot my best friend, sadness, my best friend is in a hospital bed with a gunshot in her gut, worry, she might not make it...

"kiara?" a voice says. i turn to see ward with wheezie. i stand up. "what the hell happened?" ward says. i sigh. "rafe shot her" i say. his face drops. "what?" he says. i don't say anything. "no, you're lying" he says. i shake my head. he paces up and down the hospital corridor. "wha- why.." he says. "he tried to shoot someone else, and he hit sarah instead. they rushed her here, and she's in the room up there, we're not allowed to go inside. we've been here for about an hour but we haven't heard anything" i say. he shakes his head as tears roll down his face. "what happened with rafe?" he says. "cops took him" i say. he sighs and shakes his head again. "no no, there has to be some mistake here" he says. "dad.." wheezie cries. "no no no!" he shouts, turning around and leaving. wheezie is stood there, balling her eyes out. i walk over to her and pull her into a tight embrace. i want nothing more than to be able to tell her she's gonna be okay, but i can't. because i don't know that.

jj pov:

i watch as kie hugs wheezie, then it hits me that she's my little sister. kiara pulls back and looks at me. "uh, wheezie" she says. "yeah?" wheezie cries. "this is jj" she says, pointing at me. i give her a small wave as i stand up. she runs up to me and throws her arms around my waist, pulling me into a tight embrace. she's quite small so her head lays on my torso. i hug her back, wrapping my arms around her back. i look at kie. she gives me a small, warm smile as she watches me hug my second younger sister. wheezie pulls back and looks at kiara again. she goes to stay something but it interrupted by a call from a doctor. "is anyone here for sarah cameron!?". "yes yes us!" i shout. he walks over, and looks at the 6 of us. "is she okay?" kiara says. he looks down. "she lost a lot of blood" he says. i look down as my heart drops. "but we think she's going to pull through" he says. i look up. "she's gonna be okay?" wheezie says. "she should be fine, yes" he says. relief washes over me. "we performed a procedure, to remove the bullet. it was successful, but she did lose a lot of blood. she's currently sleeping but she's gonna be okay. you're welcome to go and see her" he says. we nod.

john b walks in first. i follow him, then wheezie and kiara, then pope and cleo. we all sit around her. she's asleep, but we all sit there. wheezie begins to cry. "it's okay" i say to her. "it's gonna be okay". she sniffles and nods.

pope and cleo go home after a few hours, and kiara takes wheezie home since ward literally just abandoned her. sarah is still sleeping. i still feel so guilty. that bullet was meant for me, not her. this is because of me. i don't know how i'll ever repay or make it up to sarah once she wakes up. kiara gets back and sits next to me on a sofa in sarah's room. i put my arm around her and she rests her head on my chest. and john b is sat right next to sarah.

"sarah?" he says. me and kie both look over. sarah moves her head and opens her eyes. "oh my god" kiara says. "hey" john b says. "hey, it's me. i'm here. i'm so glad you're okay. i love you sarah" he says. she smiles at him. "i love you too" the croaks. she looks over at me and kie, who are now standing at the opposite side of the bed to john b. she looks at me first. i shake my head. "don't ever do that again. that bullet was meant for me, not you" i say. "you're welcome" she says. kie laughs. i hug sarah gently. "what happened to rafe?" she says. "he got arrested. your dad was here with wheezie, he flipped when he found out rafe was arrested and he just took off. left your poor sister here. i dropped her off at home like an hour ago" kie says. "thankyou" sarah says. "am i gonna be okay?" sarah says. i nod. "you're gonna be fine. you lost a lot of blood but they said you'll be okay and you can go home in a few days" john b says. she smiles. "if i ever see rafe again it'll be too soon" she says. "he's fucking insane" i say. she nods. "i know".

we talk to sarah for a little longer then she decided to go back to sleep. i'm so happy she's okay, if she wasn't i don't think i'd ever be able to forgive myself.

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i know i haven't edited this in like a day so here's a little bit. just wanted to let y'all know i'm currently really unwell so i'm probably not gonna be updating this for a few days. also i have school and i'm going on holiday next weekend so my updates will probably be 3-4 chapters a week depending on other factors. hope y'all understand. thankyou for the support on this book, it has 455 views right now, which actually means so much to me because i have put a lot of work into this book. i'm currently writing a few other jiara stories too so i'm a little overwhelmed but i will continue this book, i promise.

thanks again, and see you soon- molly