admire - jiara love story - obx fanfic

8. always be here

kiara pov:

"jj, if you really wanna go back there then don't come back!!"

"kie". i'm woken by a hand shaking me. i open my eyes to see pope in-front of me. he hands me a cup of coffee. i sit up. "thanks" i say. "john b and sarah are on their way" pope says. i nod as i take a sip of my coffee.

after a few minutes, sarah and john b arrive, and pope and cleo go home. jj's been in the coma for four days now. this is the longest i've gone without seeing him. i miss him so much. i miss his smile, his laugh, he's hugs, his kisses, his voice, his eyes, his touch.. everything. if he doesn't wake up, i seriously don't know what i'll do. i won't be able to cope without him, be happy without him, live without him.

just then a doctor comes towards us. "you can see your friend. he's still not awake, but you're welcome, to go in there" he says. "thankyou" sarah says as he walks away. i look at john b and sarah. the three of us walk up the corridor and to jj's room. i put my hand on the handle, but hesitate to twist it. "go on" john b says. i nod as i twist the handle and walk through the door. the three of us are immediately greeted with the blonde boy laying in the bed before us. i sigh as i walk over to the chair next to him. "jj" i say quietly. i sit on the chair and pull it up next to him. sarah and john b sit on the chairs next to me. "damn bro, you're in deep this time" john b says, looking at jj. his heart is moving up and down, meaning he's breathing.. which is a good sign. the machine he's hooked to looks pretty normal too. the beeping is in a regular pattern. he has a blue and purple bruise on his cheek bone, and a cut on his eyebrow and lip. he's covered in a blue gown, but i'm certain it gets worse. a tear falls down my face as i look at the condition he's in. what did he do to deserve this?...

a few hours later:

john b and sarah went home a few minutes ago, i'm still sat next to jj, just watching him. hoping he'll wake up. i put my hand on top of his. "jj" i whisper. i know he can't hear me, but i want to talk to him. maybe he'll be able to feel something and just know that i'm here. "hey.. it's me. it's kiara" i start. "jay i'm so sorry for our last fight. i should've never told you not to come back and i shouldn't have let you go. i'm so sorry" i whisper. "but i need you to pull through, i need you to wake up, and be okay" i continue. "and we can get through our last year of school, then we can go on our trip... and travel, and save turtles... and just be together" i smile as a tear rolls down my face. i'm surprised i still have tears left to cry after these past few days. "i love you so much jj, and i'll be lost without you. you're such a big part of me and my life that i'm not me without you. without you're stupid jokes, and flirty comments, and your snoring next to me" i laugh. "and me rolling over on a morning when i wake up and being greeted with your cute, sleepy face, covered with your blonde hair" i say, stroking his hair. "without your cuddles and kisses to comfort me when i'm sad... basically, what i'm trying to say, is i love you. so so much, honestly more than you'll ever know, and i really need you to stay with me" i whisper as more tears leave me eyes.

jj pov:

i grunt as i move slightly. i open my eyes and i'm automatically hit with bright lights. i squint slightly, getting used to the light. "jj?" a voice says. i turn to my right to see a certain girl, with dark curly hair, and a big smile plastered on her face. her eyes are red and puffy. i grunt again. "kie?" i say. "oh my god" she cries. i look around. i'm in a hospital bed, in a blue gown and i'm hooked to some machine. "what happened?" i say. "your dad.." she says. "you've been in a coma for 5 days now" she says. 5 days? i've been in a coma? for 5 days? "what?" i say. "i found you, and rang the ambulance. they brought you here and your dad has been arrested" she says. a tear rolls down her face. "they said you were likely to never wake up again" she cries. "but i'm here, i'm okay" i say. there's silence for a few seconds. "jay.." she says. "i'm sorry. i'm so sorry". "what for?" i say. "for what i said, i told you never to come back. and i thought they would've been my last words to you..." she cries. "oh kie... it's okay. you just care about me. if i had've listened to you this never would've happened" i say. she sniffles. "i love you" she says. "i love you too" i say. they sit in a comfortable silence for a few seconds. "where's the others?" jj says. "oh my god! i have to tell them. john b and sarah left like five minutes ago and pope and cleo left a few hours ago" she says, pulling out her phone

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kie: y'all

pope: what

kie: he's awake!!!

john b: shut up

cleo: no fricking way

sarah: are you shitting me?

pope: ayeeeeeee

kie: no, he's fr awake i'm talking to him rn. get your asses over here!

pope: on our way

sarah: be there in a few minutes

kie puts her phone back down and i admire her for a few seconds. "what?" she says. i smile. "come here" i say. she leans over to me and i softly grab her face, pushing her lips to mine. i feel her smile against my lips as she carefully puts her hands on my neck. after a few seconds, she sits back in her seat and holds my hand.

we talk for a couple of minutes, until the others get here. john b and sarah get here first. john b's face lights up when he sees me. "dude!" he says, walking over to me. kiara moves back and lets john b come up to me. "sup bro?" i say, dabbing him up. "you miss me?" i say. he chuckles.

i turn my focus to sarah, who's standing in the doorway still. "well if it isn't my favourite blonde, back from the dead" she smiles as a tear rolls down her face. "y'all really missed me that much huh?" i say as she walks towards me. she laughs and i put my arm out as she carefully hugs me. sarah is like a sister to me, we argue like cat and dog, but she's my best friend.

they sit down next to kiara. "how are you feeling?" sarah says. "i'm alright, bit bruised but it could've been worse" i say. sarah looks at kiara. "what did i tell you? can't kill a pogue" sarah says. kie laughs. "especially not jj maybank" john b says. i laugh.

then pope and cleo come to the door. pope has the biggest smile on his face. "bro!!" he says as he comes to the side that the others aren't at. "sup?" i say. he hugs me carefully before pulling back. "i can't believe you're actually awake" he says. "can't kill a pogue" i say, looking at sarah. she laughs.

cleo walks towards me. "jj man" she says, shaking her head. "you mad at me or sum?" i say. "can't be scaring us like that, killer man" she says. i laugh as i do the pogue handshake with her.

i spend the rest of the night just talking with the group. the others leave at around 11 ish, but kie stays. i've tried to tell her she can go home but she insists that she's gonna stay with me. she's sat on the chair next to my bed. "kie" i say. she looks at me. "mhm?" "come here" i say. "why?" she says. i shuffle along in the hospital bed and pat it. "no.. no it's okay" she says. "come on" i say. "i don't want to hurt you" she says. "kie.. i'm okay. if you insist on staying here at least let me make it so that you actually get some sleep, because that chair won't be very comfortable" i say. she hesitates for a moment before slipping her shoes off and carefully climbing in the bed next to me. i put my arm out and she lays her head down near my shoulder, just above my armpit. i put my hand on her waist. "i missed this" she says, after settling down. i smile as i move my head above her's so that they touch. "i would say me too.. but i haven't been able to miss.. or feel anything for the past five days, so..." i say. she laughs.

"i promise i'll never leave you" i say. "i know" she says, breathing out. "just promise me you won't do stupid things, that could put your life at risk" she says. "i promise" i say.

i've learnt to learn something today... my actions don't affect just me, they affect my friends, they affect kiara. i'm gonna try to be more mindful from now on, i'm gonna think before i do things. i'm not only gonna think about how they affect me.. i'll also think about how they affect kiara, and john b, and sarah, and pope, and cleo. because no matter how hard i push them away, they're here and what i do can hurt them. i think i'm finally accepting the fact that what my dad says isn't always true. even if it doesn't always feel like it... i'm loved. kiara loves me. pope loves me. john b loves me. sarah loves me. cleo has some sort of love for me, i think, when she's not pissed at me, which is actually quite a usual thing. but i need to understand that they love me, and no matter how hard i shut them out or push them away they will always be here.

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