Dusk h.s.

Chapter 77

Sometimes when you're broken, you can't be fixed. Harry shattered me like glass and there's no fixing glass.

Luke stares at me from across the kitchen table. I sip at my midnight coffee slowly as my tears clear up.

His hand makes it's way over to mind, placing it on my hand.

"I'm not gonna say I told you so." He stares into my eyes and I stare right back. "I'm not gonna say you should've listened to me. You're in love, I get that." He says. "But why would I make something like that up?"

We were just talking about his accusation of Harry sleeping with someone the night of Zayn's going away party.

Fresh tears meet my eyes again as I start to think the truth. It wasn't only a one time thing. Harry's cheated on me more than once.

"Everyone was telling me to stay away from him." I say, "And I didn't listen because I thought he actually cared. I've never been that blind. He even told me himself once that all he was gonna do was hurt me........and he did." I say quietly.

"He's a jerk, Anna. I just wish you would've listened to me so you wouldn't have gotten hurt."

I shrug. "What's the difference? I've been hurt my whole life, it's nothing new."

"You know it's okay to cry, right?" He asks, noticing my mono tonal expression. My tears are all gone now.

"I don't think I can cry anymore. What's the point? It's not gonna change anything."

His hand squeezes mine. "He's a dick for doing this to you, Anna."

I stay silent.

"I'm serious. I can't stand to see you like this."

"I knew all along that there was some kind of catch. I'm never happy. Why should I be now?"

"Don't let him ruin your whole life, Anna."

"What life? The only good thing that has ever happened in my life is Harry coming into it."

"That can't be true."

"It is." I say firmly, keeping my eyes on the table. "He was my only happiness."

My phone rings instantly and Harry's name flashes across the screen. I stare down at it, reading his name over and over again, waiting for voicemail to take over.

I don't cry. I don't scream. I stay silent.

Luke softly taps my shoulder. "Come on. I'll take you to bed."

All I do is nod and rise to my feet. Luke leads me upstairs, into his room.

"Where am I sleeping?"

"My bed. I'll sleep on the floor."

"I'll sleep on the floor."

"You've been through enough tonight." He says, placing his hands on my shoulders. I find his eyes staring into mine, never leaving mine.

I squirm under his touch. "Where's the bathroom?"

He points to a small bathroom connected to his room. I approach it, shutting the door behind me.

When I get back into the room, Luke is shirtless, fidgeting around in his underwear drawer.

I smile. "Looking for something?"

He looks back at me. "Do you find it amusing that I need a clean pair of underwear?"

"Why? Did you jack off or something?"

"Shut the fuck up!"

I laugh. He seems surprised to hear my laugh and that only makes me want to cry.

My phone flashes again, and Harry's name appears. I sigh heavily.

"Let me answer it! I'll tell the little shit to fuck off!"

"No, I don't wanna cause more trouble."

"He cheated on you, Anna. Someone needs to tell the dipshit something."

"Just ignore him." I sit down on the edge of his bed, burying my face in my hands.

"He's a fucking scum." Luke screams. He is silent for a moment until I feel him at my side. "Look at me."

"No."

"Anna please."

I gently pick my face up, allowing my eyes to meet his. Tears have already stained my cheeks again. He takes my face in his hands and stares intently into my eyes, brushing away my wet tears with his fingertips.

"What kind of monster is he to hurt a beautiful girl like you?"

I bite my lip. "A horrible one." My voice is a whisper.

"I just wanna kill him! I wanna go back to that party and beat his face in!" He stands up in frustration, pacing angrily in front of me.

I stand up as well, appearing in front of him. "This isn't your fight Luke."

"The hell it's not!"

"It's not!" I say firmly.

"He hurt you, okay?"

"And what does that have to do with you?"

"I LOVE YOU!"

I pause, staring wide eyed at him. "Well, if you love me, can't you just give me a hug and tell me everything's gonna be okay?"

He stares at me, debating what to do. I am relieved when he scoops me up into his arms, holding me close.

I allow myself to cry on his bare shoulder as he holds me against him.

I wish I could just stay right here forever. This seems like the only place I can actually be comfortable in.

Luke sleeps with me in his bed. I needed the reassurance that someone still cares. I am curled up into his arms as I try to allow myself to fall asleep.

Instead, I end up crying myself to sleep.