Dusk h.s.

Chapter 65

I don't know what to do. All these emotions for Harry are mixed up. He can't calm himself down enough. He gets over angry and it's not safe. My cons list is full while my pros consist of few. Still, I find myself being drawn to the pros, remembering the way it first felt having him kiss me.

He took the pace slow and steady, letting his lips linger on mine.

I remember the first time we had sex last weekend. I remember how his hands grazed my body, holding me down as my screams filled the room. I remember how painful, but also how pleasurable it was.

I just can't seem to come to a conclusion of what I should so. We're still together now.

I'm gonna have to stay in my pajamas all day.

I go downstairs, grabbing a tub of ice cream because I hear that's what snobby girls do when a boy let's them down.

"Hey kiddo."

I turn to see Robert standing in the kitchen doorway. "Hey."

"I sense breakup." He says.

"How'd you guess?"

"You're taking a whole tub of ice cream, not leaving your favorite brother some."

"You're my only brother. As Harry and I didn't break up." I pace the ice cream tub on the counter and slide onto the kitchen bar stool.

"What's up, sis? What'd he do?"

I raise my eyebrows. "We're gonna talk about boys?"

He shrugs. "Yeah! Why not?" He grabs a chair from the kitchen table, sitting down.

"Okay......." I confusingly look at Robert who's eager to hear my story. "It just feels like he's hiding some big secret that he won't be revealing anytime soon."

"Secret?"

"Yeah....I don't know. It's stupid. But besides the fact, he gets angry. Really angry. He can't control himself."

Robert narrows his eyes. "Elaborate."

"He gets into fights.....yells....."

"What else?" Robert urges.

"He just gets really angry. He got in a fight last night because Luke tried to kiss me."

"That Hemmings kid?"

"Yeah, that Hemmings kid. He has some kind of big crush on me or something."

"He seems like a good kid, Anna."

"I like Harry."

"I know. Has Harry ever hit you?"

I pause, should I tell him this? I decide against it. "No. He'd never!"

Robert seems relieved. "Thank goodness. I thought I'd have to beat the little shit."

I take a moment to find humor and laugh at his obnoxious comment.

"Okay, so what's the problem again?"

I roll my eyes and grab my ice cream. "Never mind."

I can hear his laughter traveling up the stairs. When I finally reach my room, I plop down onto the bed, digging into my ice cream.

I have nothing to do without Harry around. I'm almost tempted to call him, but with the amount of texts messages he's sent me today, maybe it's not a good idea.

I decide to watch a movie on my computer. Maybe it'll drown out the thoughts of my unfortunate situation.

I'm so frustrated. It's unreal. I mean, I expected him to get in a fight with Luke, but it was more than a fight. Harry was way out of line. He could've killed him and he hit me in the process. That's what I can't get out my head. I can still see the image of his hand flying back, smacking me in the face because he couldn't control himself. It just makes me upset how he couldn't give me one night without a bunch of drama. He's a hot head and he's dangerous. Everyone was right.