The One I Can't Have ( A Riker Lynch fan fiction story)

Chapter 1

Brianna

" Maddie, can you please clean up your dishes from dinner?" I yelled across the house. Maddie is my four year old daughter and sometimes she can forget to do the things I have already told her to, I mean come on, she is still only four.

" Sorry mama" she apologetically says to me.

My husband of 5 years will be home any minute and I want to make sure the house looks decent for him so I don't get the guilt trip of him working all the time while I get to stay home blah blah blah. We have been together for 6 years, married for 5. I am happy and in love with my husband still but I feel like there is something missing from our marriage. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful I get to stay home and raise our daughter but I feel like the maid. Then if something doesn't look clean enough for him he pitches a fit. I am just frustrated and tired of being a doormat only being needed for his "needs" if you get what I mean.

I hear his car beep knowing he locked it, I tense up and give myself an internal pep talk. "Ok Breezy, Josh is home, the house looks spotless, there is dinner ready on the table and Maddie is in her room out of the way. nothing can go wron-.." Josh storms through the door. " I have had a long day, don't talk to me..I just hope there is some form of dead animal on the table for dinner, Brianna". He angrily talks to me as I try to greet him.

I smile and nod at his demanding request. I was always taught to do everything for your husband no matter what and keep a smile on my face. No complaints or anything. It just makes me feel like nothing because I don't get the same respect from Josh. Every time I bring it up and let him know how I am feeling, it ends up in an argument and I feel worse than I did to start. But that doesn't stop me from trying to get josh to understand me.

"josh, I am sorry you had a rough day. I am exhausted and am going to go up and take a bath then get Maddie ready for bed. She has preschool in the morning" I say hoping he will just agree and let me move on.

" you think you are tired?" He bellows. " I just worked a 12 hour day. all I ask for is when I get home from work I don't have to worry about anything else when it comes to the household. That is your job, Breezy."

I spin around with a look of hurt on my face. "My job?" I ask. " it's my job to be your maid, josh?" I continue with all the built up hurt and anger. "josh, when I married you, I didn't expect to become your maid, or better, your mother. I deserve a little time to myself. Maddie is my first priority you come next..I am somewhere down the line at like 10th or something because of how you make me feel. You make me feel so unworthy of your love. The only love you try and show me is by your version of making love to me. But even that isn't love to me" I start feeling the tears building up.

"I don't get why you are so unhappy, Brianna. You have a beautiful home, a nice car to drive, you get to sit on your ass all day. What more do you need? I work twelve plus hours a day and this is the treatment I get." He looks at me with hatred.

"Josh the material things don't matter to me at all. They are nice yes, but it's not what I was looking for. I don't sit on my ass all day. I work hard to keep this house going So that when you walk through the door, you don't bitch about what I didn't do. Josh you only see what I don't do. No maybe I am not happy..maybe we need a break" I say nervously awaiting his response.

" Maybe" he responds.

"I will take Maddie and go to my parents house outside of L.A. In the meantime we need to figure out what is best for to family because I can't take this anymore." I head upstairs to start getting our clothes packed in a suitcase.

"Hey sweet girl." I peak at Maddie through her door. " let's get packed up, we're gonna go to nana and papa's for a while" she nods in agreement as we get ready to go to Los Angeles.