Blast From The Past

Keepsake Memory Box

"Jon is right, Joe. I should meet with Donnie and talk to him. Properly. I'm scared though." Joe pulls me closer to him and sooth myself with the feeling of his hear beating. "What are you most scared about, baby?" He asks me. "Every time I see him, I see Edie. What if I freeze up and not get anything out that I want to say?!" His fingers gently stroke my back. Neither of us say anything for a few minutes. Each lost in our own thoughts. "Do you want me to be with you?" I lift my head up to make eye contact with him. "Thank you, but I think it's best I do it alone. But maybe you should talk to him too, to clear the air between you guys. I hate knowing that it's because of me that is causing tension in the band and with your relationship." It's Joe's turn to sit up straight, "stop blaming yourself. No more. I will talk to him though." I snuggle close to him again and he wraps his arms around me. I ask him if I can use his phone to call Donnie which he hands me it.
Donnie answers after it rings three times and I think he's surprised when he hears my voice and not Joe's. "Hi Donnie, it's Kacee. I think we need to talk, when is best for you?" I hear a bit of shuffling coming from his end. He tells me he is available to meet tomorrow to which I accept. Then we end the call and I give Joe his phone back.
Wherever I go to, I always take my little keepsake box which contains all of the things that I had when I had Edie.

It has the ultrasound scan pictures, pictures from the birth, her tiny hand and foot prints, and the outfit I dressed her in. I feel like she is always with me by carrying it around like I do. Some people would probably say I'm crazy or need to move on but I don't think I've ever have truly moved on. Why would I move on, she's a part of me and always will be?! I ask Joey if I can use his scanner to copy the things for Donnie to keep for himself. "Do you need a hand, baby?" I hear Joe ask me, I turn to look at him as he stands leaning against the door frame. I sigh to myself. "It feels weird now that I'm sharing her with him when it's just been the two of us all of this time. It's different with you because you know, but he's her..." Joe comes to sit by me, "I understand honey. He's her father and for all these years, it was only you. I know that she's not my daughter but I'm here, and she's a part of you so she means a whole lot to me too."

Tears pool my eyes and I reach out for Joey to hold me. "You are the sweetest guy I know, Joseph. Every day I feel myself falling more and more in love with you. I wish she was here to know you because she'd be such a lucky little girl having you doting on her like I imagine you would." He kisses me. It starts off softly but as our tongues entwine, it becomes more passionate and heated. Our limbs become entangled. "God, I want you so badly, Kacee." I try to undress him as he does with me. "I'm all yours, right here in here, now. I need you too."
I slowly open my eyes and for a moment, I forget where I am. I pat myself down and feel Joe spooned up against my back while his left arm is draped across me. I remember us falling asleep after we made love here on the floor in the office. Glancing over at the window, the sky isn't as bright as it was and I feel a slight chill in the air. I'm startled when there's a loud knock at the front door, "Joey, do you have a blanket nearby so I can wrap it around me?" He mumbles something incoherently, I twist to see his eyes are still closed. "Joey, I need to answer the door, someone keeps knocking." His opens pop open. He now curses. "Put my hoodie on babe, you'll be okay." It takes me a minute to realise he's walking towards the front door naked, "Joe, you're naked. You can't open the door like that!" I quickly put his hoodie on like he said and watch the exchange at the front door. Joe is stood behind the door. "We're fine bro, honestly!" Then the door pushes open and I see the Knight brothers walking in. I don't think they see me as they head straight into the lounge. I make my way there and shoo Joe to get some pants or something on, "hi guys." Both Jordan and Jon look up at me as I stand at the door. "Can I get you anything, a drink or something?" They both ask for a drink of water. Then Joey comes in with pants on, I giggle at him as his hair is all over the place. He whispers to me as I walk past him "you look so hot babe!" I feel my cheeks blush.
I place their drinks on the coffee table in front of them and go to sit on the arm rest of the chair that Joe is sitting in. "It looks like we've come at a bad time, we won't stay long, sorry guys." I make sure I keep my legs crossed as I don't want to accidentally flash myself and Joe pulls me on to his lap and reaches down the side of the chair where he lifts up a throw and covers us with it. "We were asleep when Kacee heard you knocking. Everything okay?" I look at the brothers, shyly as I try to not laugh. Thankfully, Jordan begins to speak. "We were concerned about you both, especially you Kacee. Both of us are here for support." I smile, appreciatively at him. "Thank you. I'm actually meeting up with Donnie tomorrow. Joe said he's going to meet him too afterwards sometime, aren't you?" I turn to look at Joe who nods in agreement. The four have a little chat before they leave and we grab something to eat from the kitchen and we relax in the bath before we get an early night.