Blast From The Past

Forgive Me?

"If it was so bad, why did you chase after me?" I watch as a smirk forms on his face. "I wanted you, I couldn't keep away. I was lonely and horny. I just had to have you." At least he's honest even if it feels like he just wanted to use me. He would shower me with gifts. Constantly complimenting me and saying how hot he thought I was. He kept asking me out but every time I would say no. Until the last time when we had finished the job we were doing together and the cast were going out. I finally gave in to him. I can't say I regret meeting him or hooking up with him because he gave me Edie but he hurt me and that pain will remain with me.

"Sorry, that sounds terrible. It wasn't that I wanted to bed you." I glare at him. He facepalms himself. "Grr. Of course I wanted to sleep with you, how could I not but there was something special about you, you were fun and sweet." That does sound better. I find myself comparing him to Joey, I know I shouldn't. Joey has been nothing but kind, caring, thoughtful and supportive towards me. I don't think he would ever treat me in the way that Donnie did. "Okay. Thank you for clearing that up. How are your kids? I'm sorry I can't remember their names." A smile appears on his face at the mention of his children. I try not to think about Edie might have grown up without him, as it makes me sad for her but we all know what happened. "Xavier and Elijah. They're both doing great. So proud of them both. Xav is thirty and Elijah is twenty one." That's nice. I'm glad he's a great father to his sons. I wonder if Edie looks like either of them as a baby. "So, what about you, Joey, huh?" I find myself relaxing thinking about Joey. "He's wonderful, and he makes me feel so happy." I wonder what he's doing right now. "Do you love him?" Immediately I respond to him. "I do. More than anything else." I have some of my drink. "I hope he treats you well?" I raise my brow at him. As if he has the nerve to ask me that. "Better than you did, Donnie." I said calmly and as a matter of fact. I watch him swallow in his throat. "Right, sorry, I shouldn't have asked." I nod in agreement with him. He excuses himself to the bathroom. I glance around the cafe, watching how people are just going round in their everyday lives. I pick at the food in front of me and decide to take the opportunity to eat some of it before he comes back. My phone vibrates. 'I hope you're okay and everything is alright in there. Thinking of you. Can't wait to hold you in my arms! I know I'm cheesy but ya know me baby. Love ya baby girl. 🖤' I giggle and feel warm in my heart thinking about Joey. I'm so so glad that I've met him. I look up when I hear Donnie's voice in the distance. He's talking to a woman and he is giving her a hug. The woman is beaming with a massive grin on her face. She must be a fan. I watch as he takes a selfie with her and signs something for her. They laugh together. I quickly reply back to Joey. 'I'm okay, missing you. Can't wait to see you and be in your arms! Love you more ya sexy guy 😍🖤'

"What's got you smiling like you are?!" I startle at Donnie's question, I didn't even hear him walk back over here. "Just Joe checking in on me." I take a look at him with being just across from me. Apart from him getting older and possibly less hair, he still looks exactly like he did many years ago. Joey is definitely more my type than Donnie. Donnie was the unusual guy that I've been with looks wise, as I've always found myself attracted to dark haired guys. It was always Donnie's charms and flirty ways that got me. "I'll have to get going shortly, Katee. Work and all that crap, ya know."
"Do you still dance?" He randomly asks me. "No. After having Edie, I went back to work too quickly as to help me deal with what I was going through but ended up suffering from various injuries. It was kind of taken out of my hands. I miss it like crazy. Dancing was all I ever wanted to do." My emotions begin to surface and I fight to blink the tears away. "I'm sorry. That must have so difficult to give up. When the New Kids broke up, it was a weird time." I sip my drink as I acknowledge him talking. "You must have been overjoyed when you all got back together then." He smiled. "And more, babe." He laughs at my expression. "What's the more?" I can't help but be curious. "Seeing you again. Even if you are with Joey, of all people." My mouth forms the 'o' shape, kinda annoyed at him putting Joey down. "Donnie, Joey is amazing and I'm glad I'm with him. Please don't put him down like that!" He holds both hands up. "I'm playing Katee. I am jealous but he is an amazing guy. He can also be an asshole too." I raise my brow at him. "No wonder why he punched you. You were never a jerk when I knew you back then." I heavily sigh. I look out of the window to watch the world passing by. "Katee, I'm sorry. I deserved the black eye. I don't know why I'm like this but when it comes to you." I check the time. "Im tired of all this Donnie, I just want to clear the air. I feel like we're going round in circles with you." He takes hold of my hand. "I won't say anything about you and Joey, okay. I want us to move forward as well. Forgive me and let's start again?" I nod. I let him squeeze my hand before I pull it away. "Friends?" He grins. I find myself smiling too. We agree to be friends. He stands up. "Time to go, I'll call Joey to meet him. I'll be on my best behaviour. Thanks for this Katee." I follow suit and stand up, moving out of area. He hugs me briefly and leaves the diner. I breathe a sigh of relief that that's over. Now let's call Joe and see where he's at.