Blast From The Past

Honesty

The time is to meet Joe, I suggested we go to the Canary Row and meet at Ghirardelli. Ghirardelli's a chocolate and ice cream store which is very popular. I thought it might be nice to spend a few hours here in the Canary Row before heading back to mine.
I see Joe walking towards me and just seeing him takes my breath away. He's wearing his sunglasses, flat cap hat, dark pants and dark T-shirt. It makes me giggle when I realise that we're both coordinating in what we're wearing. 'Hey baby, looking lovely I see!' He wraps his arms around me and we kiss. 'Are you hungry Joe?' I place my hand in his and we start to walk through the crowds. I look sideways next to me at Joe and it hits me how lucky I am to be here with him. I see girls and women checking him out, it doesn't take a genius to see why though with his blue eyes, heartwarming smile and he's very charming.

We're nearly at Ghirardelli's.
There's so much to choose from but I keep looking at Joe and pushing all the thoughts of what he'd be like to taste... damn I need to decide quickly from the menu!! 'Everything okay Katee, you've gone a bit red in the cheeks like you're blushing or something.' Oops. I mutter yes to him whilst smiling, trying to hide my dirty thoughts. 'I just can't decide, that's all. What are you looking at wanting?' Now it's his turn to go a little red and he raises his brow... 'I know what I want but it ain't on the menu. Damnit.' Glad to know it's not just me to be thinking this way!
We eventually order what we want and we're sitting in the cute little courtyard chatting away. 'Joe, when we get back to mine later on, there's something I want to talk to you about. I think I need to clear things up but as you can tell, I'm a little anxious about how you might react. There's nothing for you to worry about, it's just something about me that you should know.' He nods and I can tell that he's curious. He takes hold of my hand reassuringly.
'So K, have you lived in California all your life?' Asks Joe and I shake my head sideways. 'I came here when I started dancing professionally but I'm actually from the north east. Nikki is the same as me, we always go where the other goes, aha! One day, we both would like to move back closer to where we came from... possibly New York or Boston, maybe somewhere in between. What about you and Boston, have you lived there all your life?' I ask him as he sips on his drink.
'I did live in LA for a few years, and still have my property there but mostly stay in New York now because of work. They're both very different ways of living huh?!?' I nod in agreement. 'Yeah, I know what you mean. Sometimes in LA, it can seem a bit superficial though. I don't know why but it just does.'
A few hours pass, we've been to the food market and we're just getting into my home. 'Well here we are, welcome to my abode Mr J McIntyre!' I wave my arm gesturing him into my hallway. I quickly fumble with the light switches so that we can see where we're going. I direct Joe to the kitchen as he carries the shopping into there. 'I'll get out the crockery so if you want to start dishing the food out and I'll sort out the drinks.' I take the drinks into the living room and set out the coffee table until I get an idea... 'Joe, do you want to lounge on the sofa or take all the cushions onto the floor?' He thinks for a moment... 'why don't we get comfy on the sofa and see how we feel later? Your sofa looks so cosy and squishy.' We finally climb onto the sofa and relax.
Suddenly feeling shy when I hear the front door opening and I stand up to greet Nikki as she walks into the living room. 'Hey guys! Hi Joe, good to meet you.' She smiles and waves at Joe who cheerily replies back to her. Nikki gestures for me to come into the kitchen with her, so I excuse myself away from Joe.
'Have you talked to him about you know what?' I shake my head sideways and she gives me a reassuring hug, 'K, if he doesn't understand or waits til you're ready then he ain't worth it babe. I'll just go and sort myself out while you chat to him... okay?' I nervously smile 'okay, thanks Nikki, here it goes then.' I make my way back to the living room and sit back next to Joe on the sofa.
'Joe, remember me saying how I wanted to talk to you about something earlier today? I think I should tell you. It's not easy for me to talk about it and I hope you will understand why I'm not as quick to jump into bed with you' I feel Joe taking my hand inside his and he softly strokes my knuckles with his thumb.
'I'll start from the beginning. When I was twenty-three, I met this guy while we were working together on a tv project. From the word get go, he kept asking me out but from the chats that I had with him, he was going through a divorce and I didn't want to be the rebound girl or someone who his ex wife would name as a side chick or whatever so I kept turning him down. I did really like him though, we got on so well and he was pretty charming.
Anyway, after a few months of him not giving up, we were on a night out with the rest of the crew and I just couldn't resist him any longer. I ended up spending the weekend at his with him. A few weeks later after feeling under the weather etc, I discovered I was pregnant. I decided that I needed to tell him but because I was worried that he thought I'd got pregnant on purpose to trap him or whatever because he was well known, I said that it was up to him. He didn't have to stick around, I could bring up my baby by myself and I wouldn't want anything off him, ya know. Also in the back of my mind; I knew it'd be the last thing he wanted or needed with just going through his divorce so wanted to give him the choice. Sadly, he chose to not take part in the baby's upbringing but even though I refused, he gave me a sum of money for the baby and maternity care that I needed because he knew I'd be a single working mother and didn't want me to struggle financially. I felt guilty at taking his money even though he wouldn't take no for an answer. Then we went our separate ways. I spent the next few months working until I was unable to perform certain routines and that I had started to show. It's quite hard to hide a bump when you have to wear little outfits on stage.
When I was six months pregnant, I started having pains and feeling unwell. Nikki managed to find this antenatal place up north so together we traveled there. Sadly, I gave birth to a still born. I had a little girl. She was so beautiful and the spitting image of her father.
Neither of us have spoken or seen each other since, I don't look at anything celebrity related to avoid seeing him because it'd bring it all back. Only Nikki knows about all of this as it's been to difficult, and I have always felt ashamed that I let myself get pregnant to a guy who didn't want to stick around. He never once got in touch to check up on the baby or anything. I stayed off work for a couple of weeks but I decided to get back to it and was working my butt off to try to move on. I've worked with some amazing people as a dancer/choreographer. Then one day I got injured and couldn't work as a dancer anymore. I think a part of it was I didn't give myself enough time to physically heal and pushed myself too much.'
The next minute, Joe moved closer and enveloped me in a cuddle and told me 'Whoever the guy is, he was a jerk to you and you deserved better. Why would I judge you? You were young, having fun and unfortunately, you got pregnant. I'm sorry he wasn't there for you when you had the baby. That must be so hard for you to live and think about? You are so strong Katee.' I start to cry at the thought of Joe being so sweet, and supportive and thinking about my baby girl, Edie. 'Katee, I'm here if you ever want to talk about the baby or anything. I now understand why you have wanted to take things slowly, I don't want you to worry as I'll go as slow as you need. I like you a lot and I will wait, going at your pace.' I kiss him soon after he finishes talking and I can feel him wiping the tears away from my cheeks.
'Knock knock, am I okay to come in and join you two?' Nikki cautiously asks. Both me and Joey motion for Nikki to come in. She sits down on the chair in the corner.
'How you liking it round here then Joe?' I look next to me at Joe, smiling. 'It's really nice, but I'm more interested in getting to know Katee.' I'm glad Nikki is making conversation as I suddenly feel rather shy. 'Good to hear, you better be treating Katee well, she deserves nothing but the best.' I glance over at Nikki trying to silently tell her to keep it cool, 'he is Nik, thank you for caring about me. I'm having fun and enjoying being around Joe.' At hearing me say this, I feel him gently squeezing my hand and rubbing my knuckles with his thumb. Then he places his arm around me so I move up closer to him. I feel better for telling him things although I didn't go into great detail about my ex.
We put some film on, not sure what it is and I can feel my eyes getting heavy. Some time later, whilst cuddled up to Joe, I stay as I am and I hear them two talking. 'I'm glad she told you, she's been messed about so much and has had endured a lot of heartache. I just hope you don't go running off like her ex did, yeah I know she gave him the choice but he could have been decent and cared about the baby at least.' I can tell Joe is a little uneasy by his heavy breathing, just when I don't think he'll respond, I hear him say... 'I know and I agree. I really like her and would love for it to work out between us. Who is her ex?'
'I don't actually know but he's someone famous and that she worked with him for a few short months years ago. I wish I had have met him cos I would have said some not so nice things to him.'
I move ever so slightly and softly stroke his chest. 'Hey baby... you okay?' I lift my head up to make eye contact and his eyes soften as he looks down at me. He kisses my forehead so sweetly and tenderly. I murmur as I feel his lips touch my skin. 'I'm tired, when did I fall asleep? Can't believe I've missed some of the film.' He runs his fingers through my hair and off my face... 'would you like to go to bed? I'll call a taxi back to the hotel.' For a moment, I just stare at him, taking in his chiseled features and shake my head at him. 'Joe, please stay with me?' In a sweeping motion, I'm in Joe's arms and he's carrying me to my room, we say goodnight to Nikki.
He sits me down on the edge of the bed. 'I'll go in the bathroom while you change.' So I quickly change into my vest top and pants. By the time I've finished, Joe's coming back into my room and I head into the bathroom. It doesn't take me long doing my teeth, wash and moisturise my face. I walk back into my room and I see Joe standing by the window in just a pair of pants... I softly gasp as I take in his toned abdomen and arms, before I know it, I'm kissing him. I open my mouth to let his tongue capture mine as we explore one another and I run my fingers down his chest before wrapping my arms around the back of his neck. The sensation of his lips against my neck sends tingles down my spine and I'm lost. I wrap my legs around his waist and I slowly trail a line of kisses down his neck to his collarbone whilst running my fingers through his hair. He grabs my ass as he carries me over to the bed and carefully lays me down, before crawling to be on top of me. We start kissing again and Joe slides my top off up over my head. Like someone who is ready to devour their prey, he moves slowly down my chest leaving a line of kisses and starts licking my boobs. I feel him pinch on my nipple before sucking on it and his other hand cupping my other boob. I feel my way down to the bottom of his spine and gently scratch his skin above the hem of his pants. We roll over and I end up being on top of him. I straddle him with our pants on and I can feel him hardening underneath me.
Joe is now on top with one arm leaning against the bed holding him up and his other caressing my skin. We kiss, letting our tongues explore inside one another and my desire for his touch in my lower region deepens as his hardness grinds against me. Joe lowers his arm downwards... 'what do you want Katee?' Breathlessly, I lose myself looking into his burning eyes and somehow make out 'you Joe'. Looking at me with such intensity, I respond back... 'Joe, I need you to touch me... please.' The next moment, my pants are slowly pulled down slightly. 'Baby, where do you want me to touch you?' I find and take hold of his hand before manoeuvring it downwards on top of my panties. He pauses and looks at me... 'yes Joe, please.' In a swift movement, he pulls my panties over to the side and I feel his fingers touching my soft flesh. He strokes so gently. I writhe as his fingers expertly stroke and circle around my mound. He slides his finger inside, slowly and I gasp as he goes in deeper. Now he enters another finger while rubbing my swollen mound. My breathing falters as I feel closer to the edge. 'Open your eyes baby girl, I want to see you while you climax. Let go.' He travels my lips with his tongue until I let him in and I can feel the intensity of his desire. It doesn't take much now for me to loosen around his fingers and I can feel my breathing slowing. I can't help but smile when I look at Joe. 'You are incredible Katee.' Without realising, I tug at his boxers, about to slide my hand inside when Joe takes hold of it and moves it away. Unable to hide my disappointment in wanting to please him and return how he just made me feel, 'this is about you Katee. I wanted to make you feel good. You can do that another time babe, okay?' I nod and I play with his hair. He rolls over to lie on his side next to me and places his arm around my waist. I rest my head on his chest. Hmm it's so soothing being able to feel his heart beating. We both fall asleep wrapped up in each other.
I awake to the smell of pancakes and bacon, I look to the side of me where I expected Joe to be and I sit up. I let my eyes wake up and adjust to the morning light. I slip on my slippers and place my dressing gown around me. I head to the bathroom and quickly make myself look somewhat presentable by brushing my teeth, splashing some water on my face and spritz some body spray. Walking towards the kitchen where I hear Joe humming along to the radio and I stop to lean against the door frame. It looks blissful watching Joe making himself at home being all domesticated... hmm I like this, a lot. Seconds, maybe minutes pass by as I stand here and watch him. He's so engrossed in with what he is doing that he hasn't noticed me. I hadn't even realised he turned round so I'm faced with his bare chest, reminiscing over last night in bed. 'Ahem... hungry?' Thinking about what it felt like to run my fingers down him, and without thinking... 'Yes, very! Thirsty, too.' His low growl knocks me out of my trance, a little perplexed and confused, wondering what was just said. Joe motions for me to sit down at the dining table as he dishes out breakfast and goes to look in the fridge for something... 'there's fresh orange and mixed berries juices in the door there.' Joe finally sits down, licking his lips ready for the food... I can't help but wish that I was feeling that tongue on me, like last night. 'I thought you said you were hungry babe? Everything okay?' Unable to hide my smile, I dig into the pancakes. Unlike me, I devour my plate like there's no tomorrow and I gulp my berry juice down. 'Thank you Joe for this, it was lovely. I could get used to waking up and you being in my kitchen cooking breakfast.' Joe stands up, moves closer to me and kneels down 'Katee, I don't have to head back til later and I was wondering if you'd like for us to spend the remaining time together?' I wrap my arms around the back of his neck, and I kiss him. 'I'd love that Joe, maybe we could stay here then I would have you all to myself?' He kisses me back and I end up cradled in his lap. 'I'm gonna miss you baby girl and I think staying here will be perfect.'
I'm in my bedroom, tidying up a little while Joe is in the bathroom. I see Joe in the mirrors reflection and without thinking, I walk over to where he's leaning against the door. I tiptoe to reach for his lips to press mine against. 'I think it's time I did something that someone told me not to last night, if he'd let me?' I blink up at him hoping he'd say yes.
When he starts kissing me back, there's an urgent need in the way he devours me once I part my lips to let him enter as we explore with our tongues. His hands roam my back and he grips my ass as he carries me over to the bed where he carefully sits me on the edge. I look up at him, and I begin to pull down his pants. His hardness is already showing through. I can feel the urgent ache in my lower region, with wanting for this. As his pants slide down over his hips, his Cock springs free already as hard can be. My hope is that I can take all of him. He's much bigger than I anticipated. Firstly, I wrap my hand around it and make movements, sliding up then down. Not only is it long but it's thick, making my hand look even more smaller than normal. Feeling Joe's hand holding my hair, I look up making eye contact, I see his pupils darken with desire. I softly press my lips against the tip of his cock. I open to start licking slowly before I take him in my mouth. To begin with, I just focus on the tip until he starts pulling me closer, so that I can take more of the length. I grab hold of his ass to help me take him deeper and I can feel the tip touch the back of my throat. The way he growls so huskily which sends tingles straight to my pussy as a result, I suck harder and faster. By his moans and hearing him mumble my name, I know he is getting extremely close. His hand softly moves my hair out of my face and gently strokes the side of my face...
'Katee.. I want us to come undone together.' Before I can even get my words together, he's lifted me further onto the bed and he's on top gazing into my eyes. He has such beautiful eyes.
I see a slight grin on his face when I realise he already has his fingers sliding in and out of me, he takes his fingers and sucks on them. 'Shit, baby, you taste so good. You were so ready for me. What do you want me to do?' I stare into his eyes longingly and pleading for him to take me. 'I need you Joe, inside of me. I want to know how your Cock feels inside my pussy.' Parting my thighs even further apart, his tip teases me. Slowly, he enters me. Damn he's not even in and already I can feel him filling me with the size of him. I beg him to move in deeper and he seizes my mouth. When his tongue enters, my heart starts racing and the needing in my Pussy makes me writhe against him. My hands pull him closer. I love how he feels on top of me. His Cock enters me carefully and then he pauses to make sure I'm okay. I kiss him then whisper to his ear. In one swift movement he is fully in me. I gasp. He starts off slowly as I tighten around him and increases his pace.
God it feels so good, he feels like he was meant for me. I look up at him, I love how seeing him look at me as his eyes darken with lust, possessiveness and intensity. As he pulls out, then pushes back in and so on until we meet each other with his rhythmic thrusts and my hips arching up to meet him. He has one hand stroking the side of my face and the other squeezing my ass.
'Katee, you're so fucking beautiful baby girl.'
I blush and I can feel myself melting under him after hearing him compliment me, it's going to take me some time to get used to hearing nice things said to me. He moves his hand up to my boob and begins to swirl his fingers around my nipple, just as I was enjoying this, he lowers his head down to lick where he's been playing. As soon as I feel this, my nipple hardens and I moan out his name. Damn I'm so sensitive around the nipples. My back arches as he continues to suck and caress me, I gently tug on his hair. Then I feel the cool air on my skin as Joe positions himself further up to be able to look straight into my eyes. He softly kisses me and I smile gazing into those beautiful blue eyes of his. I love how messy his hair is, with the odd curl sprouting out all over the place. It's been so long since I've felt this comfortable and mesmerised with a guy, right now it's just him and me. Connected on a deeper level now we've gotten close.
I awaken to the sound of Joe's mobile phone ringing, but that doesn't deter me from moving. He still has his arm wrapped around my waist and I listen to him sighing as he answers... 'hey man, yeah, yeah I'm heading back to the hotel in a little bit then making my way to the airport. I'm just with my girl before I have to leave. We were asleep til you called, ha yeah well never you mind! I'll see you there tonight, okay? Alright, see ya mate.' Then the call ends with a clicking sound and I hear Joe putting the phone back onto the side table. He turns back round to place his left hand round me. I snuggle closer to him where I can feel his heartbeat. 'Sorry about that baby, damn Knight checking over tonight's plans.' I lift my head up and kiss him before snuggling back down.
We stay in bed for the next few hours; fingers entwined, my head leaning against his chest and only hearing our breathing for sound. I check my phone for the time, frowning when I see that it won't be long before Joe has to really get going. 'Katee, you okay? I wish it wasn't that time either. I could just stay like this forever with you.' Quicker than I can smile, Joe flips up so he's now looking down to me and me laying on my back... he softly presses his lips lightly against my own and whispers 'this is the start of something good, I feel it sweetheart. Do you?'
I kiss him back and wrap my arms around his neck, pulling him as close to me as I can. 'I do. I'm scared but I trust you and us. I'm willing to give us a try.'
I stand against the doorframe as I watch Joe get in the taxi. We've already said goodbye and hugged as much as we could. He's already ten minutes late so sadly he really has to leave. I wave and watch the car until it's no longer in my view as it drives round the building at the end of road. Sadness fills me. I decide I need to try and keep as busy as I can til I next see him.