Is This Destiny? 2

Is This Destiny? 2- Part 18

Hours went by but I never left my room. I stayed in there lying on the bed thinking about Ethan carefully. He said some pretty horrible stuff to me earlier and it did really hurt but I know he's going through a tough time. Everyone faces grief in their own way and as for Ethan, he's just letting it out on me and wants to be left alone. I don't blame him at all! If I'm being honest, its my fault. He wanted to be left alone but I didn't do as I was told so I got what I deserved, right? Quickly sitting straight up, I checked the time on the clock. It was 12:30pm and Ethan and I haven't had lunch yet. He is probably hungry because I know I am. Leaving my room, I ran downstairs and walked over to the kitchen. Earlier this morning while I was looking for some medicine, I noticed a cupboard full of pot noodles. I took it out and put the kettle on. After a few minutes, I opened the pot noodles and sprinkled the flavourings on it. I poured the hot water onto it and carefully brought it up to Ethan's room. He was still wrapped up in bed but I wasn't sure if he was asleep as he had his back turned to me. Placing the pot down on his bedside table, I lightly tapped his shoulder. 'Ethan?' I asked. He shrugged, slowly opening his eyes before laying on his back. He then closed his eyes again and I'm guessing he went back to sleep. Sighing, I stared at the pot noodles I had prepared. I sat down on the floor beside the bed, 'I hope some day you'll open up to me.' I paused for a second placing the strands of hair on my face, behind my ear. 'I would love to be friends with you, Ethan.' I slowly got up and stared at him. His hair was a mess but for some reason, it still looked great! He had similar features as Jake. In fact, they looked so alike- well obviously! They're identical twins. I can't believe I'm seeing Jake. It may not be him but I felt like I was seeing him. Sitting down on the bed beside him, I stared at him carefully. My face got closer and closer to his and our breaths were literally mixing, I didn't even know why but I just wanted to admire his face. It just brought back so many memories I had with Jake. Eventhough he was no longer with us, I felt like he was still there! I stared at Ethan's lips. It was exactly like Jake's. I have only seen it in a picture but I could recognise it. He smelt good too, I wonder if Jake smelt like him. Closing my eyes, I admired his sweet scent. He smelt of aftershave. 'What the fuck are you doing?!' I jumped out of my skin, opening my eyes as I sat straight up. Ethan's face was plastered with a frown and he narrowed his eyes at me. I faked a laugh, 'Uh...' I hesitated, 'Soup?' I raised my eyebrow pointing at the pot on his bedside table.