Is This Destiny? 2

Is This Destiny? 2- Part 38

*Ethan's P.O.V*

I felt the sun rays streaking into my room as a gush of wind blew onto my face. I opened my eyes and realised it was morning. I slowly got up from my bed and made my way to the corridor. As I walked past Ariana's room, I noticed the door open. For some reason, my legs froze. Sighing, I knew I had to go in there but her room will just remind me of her too much that I may not take it. I walked in anyway and all I could smell was the scent of her perfume. She always smelt nice, I noticed this when I hugged her one time. I sat down on her bed and ran my hands on the duvet covers. Frowning, I stared at the ground. Everything was quiet- all I could hear was the birds tweeting outside. Back to my usual life, I guess. I took a deep breath before making my way down the stairs. I walked over to the kitchen and grabbed a bowl of cereal before sitting down on a chair. I slowly put a mouth full of cereal and milk before realising how boring my life really is. All I do is work and watch TV- I never really have fun. Jake was always the fun one out of us two, whilst I was always the serious and boring one. I guess that's why Dad never liked him much, he never did what he told him to do. I got a flashback of that one time when I made Ariana breakfast. It made her so happy and I can't help but smile as I imagined her grinning at me beside the kitchen door. I can't believe that Ariana has a massive impact on my life. She was always cheerful and never failed to make me smile or laugh although I never showed it. I usually covered it with my frowns eventhough deep inside she never knew how I was falling for her. I guess that's why I hated myself so much. She belongs with Jake and I know I can't just steal her from him. But the thing that I can't help but ignore is the fact that I still kind of blame her for the death of Jake. I know its not her fault that Jake talked to her but she's the reason why Jake stopped taking medication and gave up. That's one thing I will never forget even if it means I will be suffering. Besides, I'm getting married soon anyway. I know I have to do what my Dad says, he gave me life. He's the reason why I'm here today and I owe him my life. But there's one thing that will never EVER change; Ariana will always be in my heart, even if it means she doesn't belong with me...