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42. Lost

Dabi left you alone for a long time after your escape attempt. He needs to cool down, and you do too. The only problem is, you can't calm down.

You just lost another person, and it's all your fault. You can't take this anymore. You can't take being trapped and kept like some sort of pet. You hate this. You hate everything. You hate yourself.

Tears are streaming down your face as you scream in frustration and anger, flailing your body about and struggling against the handcuff. You punch at the concrete walls, as hard as you can, making your knuckles bleed and bruise. It gets to the point where you smack your head against the wall, and give yourself a nosebleed, black eye, knocking yourself unconscious.

It's not long after you fall asleep that Dabi finds you, a bloodied mess. "Jesus Christ." He mutters under his breath. He truly is breaking you, and he has to make it stop.

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When you wake up again, you feel dizzy. Everything's a blur. When you do manage to ground yourself, you find yourself in some sort of bed. Not in the basement, but in his room.

You don't feel scared, for some reason. You feel like you're floating, like you're out of your body. You look at the pill bottles on the table. That would explain it.

Dabi enters your room, noticing your eyes are open. "You're finally up."

He mumbles, rushing over to you. He wraps his arms around you, holding you tight against him. You try to struggle, you try to move, but you can't. Your body feels heavy and slow. What did he drug you with?

"I know you probably feel weird right now. I just can't trust you, and you, you hurt yourself, baby. I know it's probably my fault, but I need to keep you. I need you to stay with me." He tells you.

"I can't." You slur. "You killed my friends. I want to love you. I wish I could. But I'm scared."

The words slip out. There's no point in pretending anymore. You have nothing left. No will to try. You just want to give up and die.

"I know you are. But there's nothing to be scared of. I just want to protect you. I'll do anything for you. You know that, right?" He presses kisses to your face, moving from your temple to down to your lips. "I know, but you hurt me."

"Sometimes we have to hurt people we love to protect them." He tells you, rubbing your arms gently, and holding you close to him.

"How long are you going to keep me locked up like this? I can't take this forever. I feel like I'm losing my mind." You admit. It must be some sort of sedative he's given to you because you feel so relaxed and detached from everything. For once, you feel calm.

"I won't. We'll figure something out, okay? I won't keep you like this, I promise. I love you." He looks at me expectantly, waiting to hear you say it back, desperately needing to hear it.

While you are drugged up and being more honest, you aren't willing to say it. You wish you could. It would make things so much easier. Maybe you'd be free by now if you could just say it. If you could just pretend you loved him, then maybe you could believe it. But you can't.

"Why can't you say it? Why?" He asks angrily, his hold on you starting to tighten. You're growing scared now, wanting to move and get away from him. "You're scaring me."

He lets out a deep sigh, pinching the bridge of his nose, trying to calm himself. "I'm sorry, okay? I'm just frustrated. You won't listen and you won't admit the truth, which is you love me. It's alright, you'll give in eventually, I know you will."

"I-I think I know what'll get me to admit it. I'm not in my right mind now. This isolation is only making me feel worse. You saw what I did in the basement. You had to put me on sedatives to keep me from hurting myself. Just, let me go on a little walk or something, please. Let me clear my head."

Dabi sighs. He can't do that. But he can do something else...He should've considered how your depression affects you when you're isolated, especially since you've lost your friends. But now, he knows how to fix it. He knows just what to do.

So, he cuffs you to the wall and injects you with a little more sedatives, letting you sleep. He presses one more kiss to your lips, stroking a hair behind your ear, before heading off to a drug store.

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After buying some anti-depressants and drugs that will make you a little more submissive, he makes another stop at your old dorm, grabbing some blankets, and pillows, trying to make you more comfortable. At this point, he hardly cares for your comfort. He just wants you to admit that you're his. He just wants you to give in to him all over again. He needs you back.

Just before he can leave, he hears a knock at your door, making him freeze. "(Y/n)? You in there?"

It's a woman's voice, one that sounds familiar, but he isn't sure where he's heard it before. He stays still, not moving an inch, not even breathing.

"It's Miruko. I don't know if you're actually there or not, but if you are, let me just say this. I know you're upset about all these things happening, with Keigo and your boyfriend, and all. and I know you might feel alone, but I want to let you know I'm here for you, and I'm worried. No one's seeing you in class or anything..and if you don't show up soon, I'm going to file a missing person's report soon. So please, please just be okay..and that's all I have to say, I guess."

This is bad. People are starting to notice your absence...they're on to him. He never intended on keeping you isolated so long for people to start to notice, but it's too late now. And that can only mean one thing.

He needs to reveal his true identity to the world.

(A/N: This isn't going to end well...

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