Am I A Monster?

Chapter 11

Midoriya’s POV:
I saw Sho glance at the fight, him holding his ears tightly as Kacchan set off another one of his loud explosions. I tried to think of what to do, concerned for my boyfriend. I thought hard, wondering what I could do… then it hit me.
Shoto’s plugging his ears HARD, meaning that Kacchan’s explosions are probably irritating him and making him angry. Kirishima’s bleeding head probably isn’t helping either, even if it was just a small wound.
I grabbed Shoto’s arm, attempting to pull him away from the fight, but he pulled back. His eyes were teary, and he was holding his head tightly, probably causing him a big headache.
“JUST STOP!” He yelled, his body shaking and trembling. I had no idea what to do, as he seemed scared, but if I tried to carry him or anything like that, he could easily escape from my grasp.
“Shoto, c’mon, just follow me,” I told him, trying to be calm. He looked down at me, breathing heavily as he was very angry and irritable about the whole situation.
Luckily, no one else was paying attention as they were all busy watching the fight.
I gripped Shoto’s arm tightly this time, attempting to drag him away if I needed to. He fought back HARD, as he tried pulling away. It honestly hurt my arm, as my arm was hooked and gripped around his, making it difficult for him to get free.
“Shoto stop,” I told him firmly. He glared at me, both seeming terrified and irritable. “Just come with me, you’ll feel better.” He glared at me more, finally making a decision as he walked away from the scene with me, us both holding hands.
As we got further away from the sound, he slowly gained himself back, us now being very far from the fight, as we were almost on the other side of campus.

Shoto’s POV:
‘Ugh’ I was annoyed. I had a raging headache, and overall, wasn’t in a very good mood. I only heard faint noises of the explosions from before, which was better.
The anger and irritability engulfed me, and to be honest, I felt shameful about it, that I should’ve been able to control myself.
“Are you okay now?” a familiar voice asked. I quickly looked at him, both fear and anger in my eyes. I soon realized that it was Izu, and calmed down slightly, even though I was still very irritable and moody.
“Yeah… better at least,” I stated, glancing back at the direction of the loud noises. I took a step back, Izu’s blood scent being very strong, stronger than it normally was.
“You aren’t okay, not yet,” he told me. “There’s something clearly bothering you.” I sighed, still irritable.
“The blood… when I smelled it from Kirishima, it just won’t go away…” I told him. “And now it’s just you here, but your blood…”
“It’s okay, I totally understand,” he said soothingly. His blood was making me more irritable by the second. I could hear it running through his veins, almost hypnotizing me to bite.
I took another step back and turned away from him, being even more annoyed and irritable, repeatedly telling myself to not bite him. I couldn’t and wouldn’t hurt my boyfriend, and that was a promise I made to myself.
“Sho, do you want some of my blood?” I shook my head.
“No. I’m not gonna hurt you. I’ll be fine until the end of the day,” I told him, still turned away from him. I was very irritable, growling at myself to not bite him.
The thoughts of biting him kept replaying in my mind, as I continued breathing in the scent of his sweet blood. I started breathing through my mouth, but that didn’t help whatsoever since the scent felt like a taste of his blood in my mouth. It sucked more, so I started breathing through my nose again.
“Shoto, you need blood. Just take some of mine,” he took a step closer to me, wanting to help. I glanced at him, bringing the thought into consideration, but immediately mentally slapping myself for thinking such terrible thoughts, even if I had already bit him before.
But this was different. I had blood today, and I wasn’t starving. I was just in a faze. A faze that I needed to get out of. I wasn’t starving by any means, and this faze was complete torture.
Izu took the matters into his own hands, making me almost terrified as he bit down hard on his finger, piercing the skin with his teeth as his finger started to bleed.
I began shaking once again, taking more steps back as he inched closer to me. I sensed him, and he felt bad about doing it, but he thought it was for my own good. I stopped backing up eventually, now hypnotized by the strong scent as I grabbed his hand and teleported us both to a nearby tree within the forest inside campus.
I pinned him against the tree, now barely able to control myself as I licked the blood from his finger. It made me more hypnotized, almost like a sample, making me want more of it.
I brought my nose closer to his neck, taking in the sweet scent of the fresh, flowing blood going through his neck. I couldn’t help myself but to bite down on the skin, my fangs piercing his skin as they went deeper into his flesh. I started sucking down hard, welcoming the taste of the fresh, warm, red substance.
The blood was sweet, and gave me a warm feeling which I never wanted to let go of. Every gulp just made me want more of it, making me wanna have it all. I gripped my boyfriend tighter, my fangs digging deeper into his neck.
“S-Sho, t-that’s enough,” he stuttered. I snapped back, carefully removing my fangs from his neck. He quickly put his fingers over the bite wound, as I carefully helped him stay standing.
“I’m sorry…” I looked down, guilt and shamefulness washing over me. He seemed understanding of the situation, and didn’t seem mad at me by any means.
“Don’t be sorry, I should be the one apologizing. I basically forced you into it, even when you didn’t want to…” I could sense he was guilty as well. I looked up at him.
“It’s fine, you just wanted to help… which it did…”I told him truthfully. The irritableness washed away, not being there since my first intake of blood just a minute ago.
“Well I’m glad then,” he smiled.
“I’m sorry I was being such a problem… a burden to handle…” I apologized. He seemed sad about this.
“Again, you don’t need to apologize. It was something you couldn’t control. It isn’t your fault that your hearing is that sensitive, or that you’re attracted to blood,” he told me. I still felt bad about it.
“But I still feel like I’m burdening everyone with my condition… I hate it, I just want it to end…” I ranted. “Sorry…”
I felt warm arms wrap around me tightly, Izu hugging me tightly as he dug his cute face into my chest.
I hesitantly reciprocated the hug, a single tear streaming down my cold and pale cheek.
“If only I didn’t go into that stupid alleyway…” I mumbled. “If only I didn’t make such stupid decisions… If only I wasn’t this dumb… If only I died from the vampire… If only… I was dead…” Izu’s eyes went wide from that, looking up at me quickly, his eyes tearing up.
“Shoto Todoroki, don’t EVER think about stuff like that,” he quavered.
“But if I wasn’t here… then no one would have to worry about my stupid case… no one would have to worry about a monster that drinks blood…”
“What monster, Shoto, because all I see is a wonderful, amazing, handsome boy that’s hurting because of one incident.” I looked down at the ground. “Shoto, if you weren’t here… life wouldn’t be the same, life wouldn’t be the same without you. If you died… I would die too… I wouldn’t be able to take it, I’d kill myself too-”
“Absolutely fucking not,” I scowled. “You are not killing yourself because of me, you have too much to live for!”
“You do too! You may not know it, but many people love you, Shoto. They may not show it, but deep down in their hearts, they fucking love you!” I was surprised by his words. He barely ever swore.
“I-I…” I was at a loss for words.
“I know that you don’t know it, and I know you feel like a useless burden, but you’re not. I don’t want you hurting anymore just because you got bit by a fucking vampire,” he went off. I stayed silent, him ranting off reasons why I shouldn’t die. I was shocked, astonished that he cared about me so much. Yes, I knew at least some of my family loved me, but I never had someone go this far for me.
“I’m sorry…” I apologized, looking down once I found the opening to say something in the midst of his ranting. He looked at me, as I could sense the guilt washing over him.
“I don’t want you to be sorry, I just…” he trailed off. “I want to see you happy… I don’t want you to be sad anymore…” I continued looking down, not knowing what else to say. I couldn’t just stop being sad… but then again, I didn’t wanna make him sad by me being sad.
I stayed silent for a while longer, not wanting to say anything that would be bad or hurtful. I continued looking down, not wanting to be face-to-face with him.
“Now, don’t ever, and I mean EVER, think about killing yourself again,” he told me, taking a step closer to me. Typically I’d take a step back if someone did that… I didn’t this time.
I nodded, not wanting to make him sadder by telling him more of my true feelings. He wrapped his arms around me again, hugging me tightly as he let a few tears fall from his eyes.
I held him close to me, him being the most precious thing in my life right now, and I would NEVER do anything to ruin that.
I swore to myself right there and then, I would NEVER hurt Izuku Midoriya. If I did, it would be the end of me, no questions asked.