Your fabricated lie

7 - Dori's entries

February 06, 2021 [After 10 years]:

Hey, Dori! Never thought I would be making another entry here. I miss those days when my tears were buried in the pages of yours. I miss those moments when your warmth put me to sleep in the world full of cold hearts.

Again, after 10 years, I want you to absorb all my pains and I strongly believe it's going to be a frequent one. Please bear with me.

Where should I start? — I miss her! Let me put it that way. I miss Anu and that is the primary reason for seeking your support again. A habit that I got rid off for her will again be a part of my routine.

A lot has happened in 10 years. I am married and the one I am sharing my life with is not Anu. Yet, I was fine with it till last month because it was mutual love.

Two years ago, another girl fell in love, confessed her love and I agreed on marrying her just because I didn't want another daughter to leave her parents and lose her passion. I don't wanna lie - I loved her too. LOVED HER! Not anymore.

My parents were not okay with it. Her parents were not okay with it. Still, fighting it all, we got married last year.

Well, I am not gonna mention how beautiful it was for the first three months. The following months started to become dark. Things started falling apart. She's obsessed with me. Way too much! I won't mention her crimes because the objective of opening my journal is not to tell how cruel my so-called wife is but to tell how much I miss Anu.

I now understand how stupid I was and how much I hurted her. Karma has got everyone's back. After all, life is a boomerang. At this point, I am convinced I deserve this.

I am very sure life would have been a thousand times better than it is had I married her. I am very sure because there were moments when Anu turned the entire world upside down for me when I cried. They say, we get to know the value of the rejected options only when we make wrong choices. Guess, I have learned the lesson in a very hard way.

I would trade my entire life for going back past 10 years.

To my dearest friend, Anu,
I am sorry for being the reason for all those tears that rolled down your precious cheeks! Hope you will accept this poor man's apology.
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February 10th, 2021:

My heart hurts a lot, Dori. My mom and my wife got into a big fight. It was too loud for me and my father to get a hold of ourselves. Today is the day I understood how possessive my wife is and again, there is nothing I can do about it. Back then her possession seemed cute to me. I liked her jealousy though it was toxic as it kinda made me feel special. Today that cute toxic jealousy of hers is what separated me from my parents.

My actions, my schedules, my style, my medicines, my social media accounts, everything of mine is under her control. She started tracking my moves, got a hold of my texts and kept me away from my female fans and employees.

These are times when I hated myself for getting married to a Database Administrator who is also an ethical hacker.

My life is completely hacked! And this ain't ethical in any fu*king possible way. I wish I could sue her.

The only thing that is stopping me from doing such is the child in her stomach. She is carrying a 3 month old baby and that is completely holding me back.
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February 12th, 2021:

Dori, I found Anu!

While scrolling through the news feed, I came across our mutual friend's account. When I checked - I mean stalked her account I found Anu's account in a tagged post.

She grew up so well! Thanks to her father's sparkling eyes and mom's chubby cheeks - she inherited the same.

She is now a famous lawyer. In fact, her name is in the top 10 lawyers of Country. Someday, if I find myself in a position to sue Roshni, I will definitely let her deal with my divorce case, no matter how much the fees are.
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February 18th, 2021:

THAT BITCH KILLED MY MOM!

I wish I could put my devastated state in words. She killed my mom just because I told her that I love my mom more than anything and everything.

Had I shut my fucking mouth yesterday, I would not be doing my mother's cremation today.

Dori, I am in a position that I don't wanna be in. I just want to end it here either by putting an end to her book or mine. My father doesn't know all the atrocities she is doing. I was never a good son to my mother because I kept ignoring when she was warning me all along. Now I am being an even more bad son to my father by hiding the truth that Roshini killed my mother.

I am not sure about Roshini but unknowingly, I have committed too many crimes. You have no idea how badly I want to jump off a cliff. At this point I don't even know why this fucking heart is beating?

Someone please save me! It's suffocating in here... I can't breathe....

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Note:
From hereon the entire story is written from Anu's POV as the major part revolves around her. Any changes in POVs will be mentioned in prior.

Hope you are enjoying this little effort of mine.