faded, carl grimes

chapter 13

rick rushed carl into denise's home, thank god it was only 2 homes away. guilt washed over you, if only you weren't so stupid. if you never tried to make carl jealous but pretending you wanted ron they would've never fought, and maybe carl wouldn't be so close to death. you sat down against the wall crying, michonne tried to comfort you but you pushed her away.

voices echoed in your head. you just watched your best friend get shot by the boy you thought you'd began to fall in love with. he was the last person on the shit storm of an earth who cared about you too. now you were alone, and there was no one to turn too. you got the urge to go on a killing spree, you couldn't kill a person for the life of you before now. seeing as you had no reason to kill anyone other than negan you took your knife out and ran outside into the walkers, stabbing as many as you could ignoring the screams of everyone else.

"what is she doing!" rick yelled
"she's trying to kill them all" michonne said watching out of the window
"she's gonna die out there" rick said and looked at denise. "will he be okay?" he asked
"should be, i hope. go save that girl" denise answered and rick and michonne obeyed. with rick using his axe and michonne using her sword they started taking down walkers. and soon they were almost all gone. daryl had finally gotten back and sat the pond on fire leading them all there as the 3 of them had gotten corned, they started slowing heading towards the fire.

you just risked everyone's life for your stupid feelings. you didn't know what was happening to you but you thought you were losing your mind. you fell to the ground crying once again
"hey kid" rick said crouching down beside you
"y-yeah?" you whimpered looking at him
"glenn would be proud of you. your doing so good. ya hear me?" he said with a smile
"i-i almost got you and michonne killed!" you pleaded
"your mourning, it's okay to miss him in fact it's normal and your going too for a while" rick said showing sympathy
"i don't want to miss him" you struggled to say "it hurts to much to remember. I just want to forget!" you said crying even harder remembering memories of Glenn.
"hey no no, don't say that. forgetting only makes it harder, trust me." he said pulling you into a hug. this was the first time you'd ever had a true meaningful conversation with Rick. he wasn't really so bad, and you still couldn't help but feel bad for what happened to Carl.

"is carl gonna be okay?" you spoke up sitting on a chair in Rick's house
"he's gonna be fine" michonne said
"that's good" you smiled
"rick wants me to talk to you" she started
"about?"
"carl." she said sternly
"what about him?" you asked nervous
"you two were so close before we came here, and now you act like strangers. he's coming back from denise's care today, and Rick wants you two to hang out" she said
hang out? the thought of even talking to him freaked you out. what would enid think? or worse, do.
"rick is talking to him right now. and i know you don't want to be told what to do, but carl's good for you-" you stopped her
"it's okay michonne, I'll hang out with him" you sighed
"okay good" she said giving you a small smile
"how are ya holding up?" She asked worried about you
"im doing fine" you said quickly, not wanting to have this conversation right now.
she seemed to have noticed and changed the subject, "rick really needs to go on a run!" she said laughing
"why? what do you need?" you looked at her
"toothpaste!" you both laughed

maybe you did have someone you could count on even with the majority of them gone. maybe michonne was the person you needed all along, you looked at her and smiled. after all, she did seem to get you.

this isn't as long as the last one ☹️ but finally gonna start getting to stuff with Carl 😜😜 and hello michonne is abt to be your bestie. ‼️‼️‼️