faded, carl grimes

chapter 16

you woke up to the feeling of fingers tangled in your hair and looked up to see michonne smiling at you while playing with your hair. you quickly rose up
"im sorry!" you said still half asleep
"no no it's okay" she smiled at you
"how do you feel?" you asked her looking around to see rick and carl also in the room
"I'll be fine" she said reassuringly
"thank god" you said smiling

rick walked over to you and put his hand on your shoulder
"you wanna go back to the house? grab some food or some more sleep?" he asked
that was the first time you'd slept without nightmares. you shook your head no.
"i better stay here" you said
"y/n she's fine, you can leave" carl said
"hey guys if she doesn't want to leave it's fine, let her stay. it's good to have company" michonne said smiling at you and you returned the smile.
"fine, im going to go find Enid" Carl said and michonne gave him a glare.
"im just gonna make sure she's alive michonne" he said rolling his eyes before walking out of the room. rick noticed the tension

"do you like carl y/n?" rick asked
you were shocked, you hadn't even wanted to be around him. what gave that impression?
"no, we're barely even friends" you said and it wasn't completely a lie, it seemed as if he hated you now.
"oh now that's not true y/n" michonne said laughing
"is so!" you protested
"sure sure" she said not believing you
"im gonna go check on everyone" rick said leaving you and michonne alone

"i thought i lost you" you said
"me?" she asked
"yeah, when i saw the blood. i thought you were gone" you said looking at her
"im not going anywhere y/n" she said smiling
"please don't say that, every time someone says that they die. my mom, glenn, Ron" she stopped you "hey, im not every one" she said
"I know but I can't lose you, not yet" you said
"yet?" she asked then added "honey your not gonna lose me until I die of old age, and that'll be a while" she laughed and you smiled. right at that moment you felt that strange feeling again, the feeling you only felt when you were with your mom or glenn. you were safe. you knew you were safe with the rest of the group too but it didn't feel like it, now it finally felt like you were safe.

"michonne can i ask you a question?" you said
"sure" she replied
"have you ever felt someone who made you feel safe?" you asked her
"yes, i have actually why?" she asked back
"just curious" you said smiling at her
"do you feel safe y/n?" she asked
"for the first time since glenn's been gone, I do." you smiled at her
"im always gonna protect and look out for you, it's what glenn would want and you remind me of me when I was younger" she said returning the smile
"thank you michonne, my mom would've loved you" you said tearing up at the thought of her
"I would've loved her too y/n" she said smiling

your mom had went missing 3 days before michonne showed up at the prison. she said she was going on a quick walk, rick said it wasn't safe to go outside of the fences just yet but she assured him she'd be fine. boy did she lie. you wondered how it happened, the night at the lineup before everyone knew what was waiting when you found her replayed in your mind. questions lingering, how'd she get that far out? how long after she left did she die? and what happened because you don't remember seeing any walker bites.

i was gonna make this sad and add a nightmare where michonne died but not say it was a nightmare until the end however i decided to give y'all some cute stuff with michonne bc I love her and we're married and I could never write ab her dying 😊😊